J
I must warn you, women mostly, please be careful with what you say to me about modesty. I am slowly learning to hear it, but due to my mother I hear only shame.
Last night I was with my counselor who decided to graciously overview modesty with me. Now I have my moments, but overall I cover up adequately. But on special occasions I will wear a short dress. At my birthday party was one such day. I know how to carry myself. I never flashed anyone, and I knew every person who would be at my party. Most, like 90%, were women. The others were safe and Godly men. I can think of two occassions in the past year when I wore a short dress. One was a women's event. One was my party. As my couns door was talking I felt little more than shame. I don't understand why anyone would look at me, but she said I was being a bad example for church women. I talk to several people, men and women alike, about clothes and they rarely have much to say. I love to dress up but there just clothes I would never wear to church in the same way I may wear them out for a drink with ny girlfriends. I wear knee length dresses or pants and cover my shoulders always when I'm on stage. Sometimes when I'm not in stage I'll wear a shorter dress with leggings.
Anyways, after the convo with my counselor I texted my friend an apology because I felt like I'd dishonored his home. He said he'd spoken with his wife and they felt I was dressed appropriately for my party. But with the mess of shame in my mind, I ended up in a texting convo with a long distance friend that went far beyond where it should have gone.
So I wake up today and I've been lying here for 2.5 hrs and can't get out of bed. I really want to hurt myself.
Last night I was with my counselor who decided to graciously overview modesty with me. Now I have my moments, but overall I cover up adequately. But on special occasions I will wear a short dress. At my birthday party was one such day. I know how to carry myself. I never flashed anyone, and I knew every person who would be at my party. Most, like 90%, were women. The others were safe and Godly men. I can think of two occassions in the past year when I wore a short dress. One was a women's event. One was my party. As my couns door was talking I felt little more than shame. I don't understand why anyone would look at me, but she said I was being a bad example for church women. I talk to several people, men and women alike, about clothes and they rarely have much to say. I love to dress up but there just clothes I would never wear to church in the same way I may wear them out for a drink with ny girlfriends. I wear knee length dresses or pants and cover my shoulders always when I'm on stage. Sometimes when I'm not in stage I'll wear a shorter dress with leggings.
Anyways, after the convo with my counselor I texted my friend an apology because I felt like I'd dishonored his home. He said he'd spoken with his wife and they felt I was dressed appropriately for my party. But with the mess of shame in my mind, I ended up in a texting convo with a long distance friend that went far beyond where it should have gone.
So I wake up today and I've been lying here for 2.5 hrs and can't get out of bed. I really want to hurt myself.
