I know and understand what you are speaking to.
Seems we all are being put to the test lately.
Do not give upp hope.
Remeber that hope is for what we do not see, and faith is the evidence of what we hope for.
I was reciently starting to feel as you are now, when Jesus said, stop looking to the world and self, look at me!
So I did, every time any thought of defeat, deppression, disapointment, well you know the long list....
I prayed Jesus, all is your victory, all is your glory!
I saw how the feelings I was having were because the thief had made me look to self, rather than to Jesus's victory!
I prayed alot that day and have since, and it is all about Jesus!
Already praying for you in Jesus's name, that your faith will be not just renewed, but made compleat!
For God sent a plentiful rain upon a dry land, renewing His promise when it was weary.
in the love of Jesus.
God bless
pickles