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Hi my name is patty. i am a 21 year old wife and mother. every since i got pregnant (nov.2009) i started getting anxiety. now its gone out of my control and even caused problems with my marriage. my husband is a wonderful man and has deff been extremely patient with me but he doesnt have to. im scared that one day im going to push him away with my anger problems. I NEED HELP! ive attended christian church all my life but wasnt fully committed until 2010. i was going down the wrong path and luckly god stoped me and showed me a better way. i dont want my son to grow up seeing my episodes. i wish i had more control and i can honestly say the root of my issues is insecurity. no self respect. very very low self esteem and very very short tempered. im a stay at home mom and ive lost all my friends when i converted. my past friends were drinkers and well i can honestly say im better off alone but i must atmit once in a while ive needed a real friend. we havent been attending church because we've been too busy to look for one. the one we use to attend just wasnt the same anymore. people were more focused on gossip and the 50 year old pastor started dating a 19 year old. i dont want my son to grow up living the sort of life that church was providing. everyone has to search for the church god has assigned them to. i hope to meet other people who understand my situation although i didnt give full details i have a feeling gods going to help me find that friend that ive been in need of.
lol. as soon as i start praying i know god helps me fall asleep with better thoughts