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Hey you might as well know all it takes is an internet search. I could have used a different screen name but you know what I believe in confessing your mistakes and asking God for forgiveness.
I had two major influences in my life one telling me there were other paths to God besides the Bible and Christ, that everyone who was good would go to heaven. They were all over my childhood where I was told not to judge others by my moral standards, not to hold people accountable to my religious doctrines. My family was mostly Buddhist, I was the first fully Christian convert and that was when I left home and started talking to people and thinking more independently. My Christian adopted American grandmother was Episcopalian and when I tried to talk to her about it she would tell me that Buddhism was an ok and moral path and would lead people into Heaven. She'd been with my family since I was 8 years old during the time my mom divorce my dad because he tried to kill my two little brothers and beat anyone who go in his way. She also told me that God wanted us to forgive my biological dad. So I was already questioning what she was telling me. During high school we never had a lot of money and I didn't get a job until my senior year as a nurse tech at the emergency medical intensive care unit. You never saw anyone for very long. they either moved up to the recovery ward or they moved down to the morgue. During high school all I had was a Gideon's Bible which I read daily, but no one could answer my questions and I always thought I could never live up to being like Jesus. I would never be good enough.
No one ever told me the concept of grace until after I graduated high school, they spend all their time tell me about sinners and other things that I already knew and read about. If they ever said that Jesus died for me, they never convinced me that it was true because I didn't think I was worth much of anything.
So one night on NC A & T campus a friend talked to me and told me that it was not about being worthy it was about having faith and about how God loves everyone. He showed me were people though imperfect were still forgiven.
I'm not perfect and I make mistakes.
I admit it and the one being thrown at me now is that I believe lies to be truth because I didn't want to believe that so many of my friends and family were going to hell because they did not really and truly believe in Jesus.
I don't go around "digging up dirt on people" and I don't throw people's mistakes in their face.
My life has been anything but normal. Last December a friend sent me a psychics site via facebook. I admit I made the mistake of trying to converse with people about religion without a firm understanding of everything, but I thought if you hear it in a Christian church, surely the pastor would tell you if something was not in line with the Bible right?
so this is my confession you can hate me for it but God has already forgiven me for I prayed my prayer of repentance I am not ashamed of my mistakes for they teach me and make me who and what I am. However I do seek not to repeat them.
For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow.
~ James 1:3, NLT
"If instead of a gem or even a flower we would cast the gift of a lovely thought into the heart of a friend, that would be giving as angels give." by George MacDonald
Emptiness, darkness surrounds me Lord, where is your light?
Where oh Lord is your sweet song?
Life is not worth living without the presence of the Lord
The sun light is dimmed, darkness surrounds us
God of our salvation we cry out to you
We ask you forgiveness for our transgressions
We have walked off the path you intended for us to travel
In the pits of hell we cry out to you oh Lord
Come rescue us
We are surrounded by evil and they laugh at our afflictions
They mock the name of the Lord and say that none can save us
Lord their voices are numerous and many despair
But I will keep my faith in the Lord
My eyes will wait upon the arrival of the Lord
My heart will sing a sad song until the Lord graces our presence once more
We will fast for the bridegroom is not with us
We will wait upon the door until the Master calls us back into His house
We will tend the garden and sleep in the fields, until God has pity upon us
Lord hear our prayer of repentance.
Lord hear our prayer of thanksgiving
Lord send us your peace and love and show us the way.
We offer our lives as a sacrifice to you Lord, show us the path, guide us and lead us not into temptation
Give us today our daily bread, Deliver us from evil. You're power reigns on Earth and in Heaven.
Lord we ask that you keep us safe, provide a shield and a sword and let not the thoughts of the wicked enter past the helmet of salvation that you have given us. Lord do not forsake us.
In Jesus name we pray, Amen
I had two major influences in my life one telling me there were other paths to God besides the Bible and Christ, that everyone who was good would go to heaven. They were all over my childhood where I was told not to judge others by my moral standards, not to hold people accountable to my religious doctrines. My family was mostly Buddhist, I was the first fully Christian convert and that was when I left home and started talking to people and thinking more independently. My Christian adopted American grandmother was Episcopalian and when I tried to talk to her about it she would tell me that Buddhism was an ok and moral path and would lead people into Heaven. She'd been with my family since I was 8 years old during the time my mom divorce my dad because he tried to kill my two little brothers and beat anyone who go in his way. She also told me that God wanted us to forgive my biological dad. So I was already questioning what she was telling me. During high school we never had a lot of money and I didn't get a job until my senior year as a nurse tech at the emergency medical intensive care unit. You never saw anyone for very long. they either moved up to the recovery ward or they moved down to the morgue. During high school all I had was a Gideon's Bible which I read daily, but no one could answer my questions and I always thought I could never live up to being like Jesus. I would never be good enough.
No one ever told me the concept of grace until after I graduated high school, they spend all their time tell me about sinners and other things that I already knew and read about. If they ever said that Jesus died for me, they never convinced me that it was true because I didn't think I was worth much of anything.
So one night on NC A & T campus a friend talked to me and told me that it was not about being worthy it was about having faith and about how God loves everyone. He showed me were people though imperfect were still forgiven.
I'm not perfect and I make mistakes.
I admit it and the one being thrown at me now is that I believe lies to be truth because I didn't want to believe that so many of my friends and family were going to hell because they did not really and truly believe in Jesus.
I don't go around "digging up dirt on people" and I don't throw people's mistakes in their face.
My life has been anything but normal. Last December a friend sent me a psychics site via facebook. I admit I made the mistake of trying to converse with people about religion without a firm understanding of everything, but I thought if you hear it in a Christian church, surely the pastor would tell you if something was not in line with the Bible right?
so this is my confession you can hate me for it but God has already forgiven me for I prayed my prayer of repentance I am not ashamed of my mistakes for they teach me and make me who and what I am. However I do seek not to repeat them.
For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow.
~ James 1:3, NLT
"If instead of a gem or even a flower we would cast the gift of a lovely thought into the heart of a friend, that would be giving as angels give." by George MacDonald
Emptiness, darkness surrounds me Lord, where is your light?
Where oh Lord is your sweet song?
Life is not worth living without the presence of the Lord
The sun light is dimmed, darkness surrounds us
God of our salvation we cry out to you
We ask you forgiveness for our transgressions
We have walked off the path you intended for us to travel
In the pits of hell we cry out to you oh Lord
Come rescue us
We are surrounded by evil and they laugh at our afflictions
They mock the name of the Lord and say that none can save us
Lord their voices are numerous and many despair
But I will keep my faith in the Lord
My eyes will wait upon the arrival of the Lord
My heart will sing a sad song until the Lord graces our presence once more
We will fast for the bridegroom is not with us
We will wait upon the door until the Master calls us back into His house
We will tend the garden and sleep in the fields, until God has pity upon us
Lord hear our prayer of repentance.
Lord hear our prayer of thanksgiving
Lord send us your peace and love and show us the way.
We offer our lives as a sacrifice to you Lord, show us the path, guide us and lead us not into temptation
Give us today our daily bread, Deliver us from evil. You're power reigns on Earth and in Heaven.
Lord we ask that you keep us safe, provide a shield and a sword and let not the thoughts of the wicked enter past the helmet of salvation that you have given us. Lord do not forsake us.
In Jesus name we pray, Amen