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Today is my Birthday. I’m 56-years old and I’ve never felt this alone. It seems as if every decision I make just doesn’t turn out the way I plan them. Most recently, I accepted a job and moved from Las Vegas, NV to Morongo Valley, CA. I spent all I had for the bus ticket, and less than 2-weeks later, it didn’t work out. I’m not going to blame myself or the man I came here to work for; this just wasn’t where I was meant to be. Right now I don’t know where I belong. I’m not defined by my circumstances because I know I have a spiritual self and a natural self, and believe me; my spiritual self is alive with love and light towards someone who just fired me. And now I’m back (yes a set back) looking for a job and place to live again. In the natural, I’ll have $280.00 for my work here on Monday, minus the cost of a bus ticket, one suite case and duffle bag, diverse, useful job skills; yet no direction. If I allow doubt to set in, Monday will come and I won’t have a plan; so what do I do? I use to be popular, but with time and changes, there’s no one in this world I can think of to help; only God.
In the movie It’s A Wonderful Life, Clarence (the Angle) wrote in a book to George Bailey “Remember, George: no man is a failure who has friends.” And I do have one friend, but I won’t go back to Vegas and be a burden on her again.
Why in the world would I go back to Vegas for more of the same bad news, you didn’t get the job. Or more of the same, you got the commission job and the stress of making sales that come too few and far in between. On the other hand if I stay here in California or move to a nearby state, where could I afford to live, find a job, and receive my first check before my money runs out? I know that sounds like fear, but it’s a rational fear I’m doing my best to replace with faith. I truly believe that with prayer all things are possible, especially what seems impossible. All day I’ve applied to live-in positions and work in exchange for room and board, because the typical jobs take too long to reply if they reply; time is running out, and access to a computer. Since my mind isn’t made up, I’m so open to suggestions, advice, guidance that will be a turning point in my life.
Thank you so much for your time, and God Bless You
[FONT="]Nette [/FONT]
In the movie It’s A Wonderful Life, Clarence (the Angle) wrote in a book to George Bailey “Remember, George: no man is a failure who has friends.” And I do have one friend, but I won’t go back to Vegas and be a burden on her again.
Why in the world would I go back to Vegas for more of the same bad news, you didn’t get the job. Or more of the same, you got the commission job and the stress of making sales that come too few and far in between. On the other hand if I stay here in California or move to a nearby state, where could I afford to live, find a job, and receive my first check before my money runs out? I know that sounds like fear, but it’s a rational fear I’m doing my best to replace with faith. I truly believe that with prayer all things are possible, especially what seems impossible. All day I’ve applied to live-in positions and work in exchange for room and board, because the typical jobs take too long to reply if they reply; time is running out, and access to a computer. Since my mind isn’t made up, I’m so open to suggestions, advice, guidance that will be a turning point in my life.
Thank you so much for your time, and God Bless You
[FONT="]Nette [/FONT]
