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I'm a 40yr old female, and I am living with my parent's due to the fact that I have health issues. My health issues are a mental problem, which I would rather not go into detail. Anyways I've had these issues since I was a child, and my mom has always held me back from being able to having a normal childhood life. She always would say it's because of these issues, I have one brother, and one sister. I'm the youngest, and she had always treated me different, instead of encouraging me she would always hold me back. Saying it was because of my health issues, I can remember as I was growing up that she would talk to my brother, and sister with respect. Yet her attitude toward me has never changed, if I had the capability to go out into the world, and work, and live on my own I wouldn't hesitate to go out on my own. My self esteem, and confidence are so low, which I feel it all has to do with the way she always made me feel. As well as still does, which comes to the point where I need help, and advice. You see I wrote her a letter a while back letting her know exactly how she always made me feel. I told her that I feel like if she had encouraged me, and said I was, and always would be capable of anything I may have been able to accomplish something in life for myself. Me, and my mom don't see eye to eye, to this day because she's always still trying to keep me from doing what I want to do in life. I know I'm not able to work, something I would give anything to be able to do instead of being at home everyday all day long. I wanted to at least go, and volunteer, but as she has always, and still says. I can't because of my condition, it seems like we are always at each others throats most of the times. Due to the fact that she always wants to be so controlling, and because I can't drive she always wins. We live in a small town so it's not like I can take a taxi, bus, or train to accomplish my wanting, and feeling the need to volunteer. God has given me many miracles in the past, and I know the first commandment in the bible is to honor your parent's, but I feel like God comes first above all things. Yet I feel like I'm dishonoring God, because I feel like I'm only existing instead of living. Which I know is a sin, especially because of all the miracles he has giving me in my life. So I've told my mom that it's because of her holding me back that I feel this way, and that she's to blame. I'm know that that's not honoring thy mother. Although could would there be a line for such an issue as this?
I'm a 40yr old female, and I am living with my parent's due to the fact that I have health issues. My health issues are a mental problem, which I would rather not go into detail. Anyways I've had these issues since I was a child, and my mom has always held me back from being able to having a normal childhood life. She always would say it's because of these issues, I have one brother, and one sister. I'm the youngest, and she had always treated me different, instead of encouraging me she would always hold me back. Saying it was because of my health issues, I can remember as I was growing up that she would talk to my brother, and sister with respect. Yet her attitude toward me has never changed, if I had the capability to go out into the world, and work, and live on my own I wouldn't hesitate to go out on my own. My self esteem, and confidence are so low, which I feel it all has to do with the way she always made me feel. As well as still does, which comes to the point where I need help, and advice. You see I wrote her a letter a while back letting her know exactly how she always made me feel. I told her that I feel like if she had encouraged me, and said I was, and always would be capable of anything I may have been able to accomplish something in life for myself. Me, and my mom don't see eye to eye, to this day because she's always still trying to keep me from doing what I want to do in life. I know I'm not able to work, something I would give anything to be able to do instead of being at home everyday all day long. I wanted to at least go, and volunteer, but as she has always, and still says. I can't because of my condition, it seems like we are always at each others throats most of the times. Due to the fact that she always wants to be so controlling, and because I can't drive she always wins. We live in a small town so it's not like I can take a taxi, bus, or train to accomplish my wanting, and feeling the need to volunteer. God has given me many miracles in the past, and I know the first commandment in the bible is to honor your parent's, but I feel like God comes first above all things. Yet I feel like I'm dishonoring God, because I feel like I'm only existing instead of living. Which I know is a sin, especially because of all the miracles he has giving me in my life. So I've told my mom that it's because of her holding me back that I feel this way, and that she's to blame. I'm know that that's not honoring thy mother. Although could would there be a line for such an issue as this?
Though it may be going against her wishes, remember that God's will and plan for your life usurps that of your parents.