Thank you everyone, for your prayers... I guess what I am more terrified of is, if she had accepted God into her life? Is she really in heaven? Do other people who don't believe in God go to heaven? Will I ever see her in heaven? I have so many pictures of her and me (when i was little) over at my dads house, and today was the first day in over 2 years I have seen my dad, and what horrible timing, but it's God's timing? We had a fallen out a few years ago... said some things we didn't mean, and it took a death in the family to bring us back together. Sad, but what better time than that. It was my dad's mom that passed away, and I don't know... just really miss her, even though we weren't all that close, its still family. And it still hurts, I have cried out more times today than I have in a very long time.. this is my first time having a death in the family and it REALLY hurts.