Dear sister, God gave you courage to make a decision so it is Him who starts new life in you. All you have to do is trust blindly. Only He knows what you had to experience, He knows your heart and desires, and He is present for you. God wants you to be happy. He is Savior. He saves you every moment, He holds you here and now. Feel yourself relaxed in His heart for you ARE there. He will take care of you and let you be loved. Congratulations on the new beginnings! Be blessed!