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My dad has always been a very violent and abusive man. Most of my life I have shoved all of his abuse under the carpet. It's only been recently that Ive been able to admit the rape, molestation, and other fits of rage. Two yrs I was married, several months before that my father was diagnosed
with stage 4 bile duct cancer. Through nothing less than an act of God, he received a full liver transplant, and they found no cancer. Two months later, he came to my wedding and hobbled down the isle with me. I wish I hadn't allowed him to. At the beginning of this year, I sent him a kind but forthright letter stating that he had to start taking responsibility and stop manipulating the world to feel sorry for him. After he received the letter, he (through my stepmom) denied everything, and they both disowned me. They told me I was the one who needed help and not contact them until I was fixed. Anyway, that was in the beginning of January. At the same time They told me he had less than a year to live.
Today he was admitted to the hospital with stomach pain. My oldest brother lives far away and has little information. My sister wants nothing to do with my dad. My younger brother is just fed up with it all, so I have no way of knowing what's going on. To be honest, I kind of wish he would die. He has caused so many people so much pain. I do love him, but I also hate him. I'm not quite sure how I should feel. He is 62 and not saved.
with stage 4 bile duct cancer. Through nothing less than an act of God, he received a full liver transplant, and they found no cancer. Two months later, he came to my wedding and hobbled down the isle with me. I wish I hadn't allowed him to. At the beginning of this year, I sent him a kind but forthright letter stating that he had to start taking responsibility and stop manipulating the world to feel sorry for him. After he received the letter, he (through my stepmom) denied everything, and they both disowned me. They told me I was the one who needed help and not contact them until I was fixed. Anyway, that was in the beginning of January. At the same time They told me he had less than a year to live.
Today he was admitted to the hospital with stomach pain. My oldest brother lives far away and has little information. My sister wants nothing to do with my dad. My younger brother is just fed up with it all, so I have no way of knowing what's going on. To be honest, I kind of wish he would die. He has caused so many people so much pain. I do love him, but I also hate him. I'm not quite sure how I should feel. He is 62 and not saved.
