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Ok. So. Umm. I'm kind of bored and lonely right now so i thought i would post something that has had me pondering and conjuring lately.
I guess some background is in order. I got saved January of 09 if i recall correctly. My memory ain't the best at times. They say i done no damage when i hit my head with a post driver but i sure don't remember like i used to. lol. Anywho i got saved through the help of what i thought was a friend. Turns out after me and her tryed dating and she tryed controlling me that crashed and burned and went about as well as the US economy is going right now. So needless to say she is gone and i no longer speak to her. Not to mention she gave my number to some other crazy girl i wanted nothing to do with after i changed my number once to get the girl to leave me alone so yeah thoose two gone best thing i could have ever done.
Ok so now that you sortof understand how i got saved here is the issue. When i first got saved i was really strong in my faith but over the time my now ex girlfriend who helped me to find God also led me away from him. She slowly sucked the life out of me to the point i had no desire to do much of anything. Keep in mind during this time and i still currently do suffer from fibromyalgia and chronic pain so on top of that combining her and the medical problems i lost all fight. I still turned to God but not how i used to.
So what i want to know is how do i get closer to God when it takes all i have to get through each day and normally 3 to 4 days out of the week i have to take 2 to 4 hour nap because i get so wore out. The reason i'm trying so hard is i'm dating an amazing girl and she needs a good role model. I see a lot of my past in her but she jus tain't lived it yet and i would love to be able to be strong and guide her away from trouble i got into. So i guess just give general input i don't know. This is really just a general open discussion i hope to pull ideas from.
Dan
I guess some background is in order. I got saved January of 09 if i recall correctly. My memory ain't the best at times. They say i done no damage when i hit my head with a post driver but i sure don't remember like i used to. lol. Anywho i got saved through the help of what i thought was a friend. Turns out after me and her tryed dating and she tryed controlling me that crashed and burned and went about as well as the US economy is going right now. So needless to say she is gone and i no longer speak to her. Not to mention she gave my number to some other crazy girl i wanted nothing to do with after i changed my number once to get the girl to leave me alone so yeah thoose two gone best thing i could have ever done.
Ok so now that you sortof understand how i got saved here is the issue. When i first got saved i was really strong in my faith but over the time my now ex girlfriend who helped me to find God also led me away from him. She slowly sucked the life out of me to the point i had no desire to do much of anything. Keep in mind during this time and i still currently do suffer from fibromyalgia and chronic pain so on top of that combining her and the medical problems i lost all fight. I still turned to God but not how i used to.
So what i want to know is how do i get closer to God when it takes all i have to get through each day and normally 3 to 4 days out of the week i have to take 2 to 4 hour nap because i get so wore out. The reason i'm trying so hard is i'm dating an amazing girl and she needs a good role model. I see a lot of my past in her but she jus tain't lived it yet and i would love to be able to be strong and guide her away from trouble i got into. So i guess just give general input i don't know. This is really just a general open discussion i hope to pull ideas from.
Dan
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