Hey Jack, welcome to CC! Sorry you've been having struggles lately. The good news is that God has the answer! =D I'll be praying for you and please, write me any time if you'd like. "Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance....Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him." - James 1:2-3&12.