I struggled for years on these topics..
Until God got a hold of me....
I took a good look at gids grace and mercy towards me and all i had done..
Gods mercy doesnt give me what i "really" deserve, and His grace gives me "more" than i deserve.
When i read that statement and really looked at it, wow! Gods mercy towards everything ive done has been great. His instruction to me is "go do all that has been done for you" ive not been able to ignore that since...
I used to be like judge judy.. Judge, jury, executioner , and i was "good" at it. but my heart has greatly softened towards God because if His tenderness towards me. Now when judge judy wants to pop up a little whisper comes immediately "but by the grace of God.... there go I". Not to mention a secobd whisper "michelle , michelle, have you forgotten or do you not remember, all that has been done for you?" When God comes, judge judy in Me has no option but to fall on her face before Him. i find i am unable to respond at all in the situation now when this happens... that went on for a while as God began revealing how he responded to me in my times of error... he made no mention i had errored, he only showed me love.. he loved me no mattwr how awful i had been towards Him. go and do likewise? God is bringing me out of the stages of being silent to releasing some of what he has released to me. It is now beginning to flow out towards those i either hated, severed off from any relationship with me, or just plain mad at..true peace is being restored and increasing, chains of bitterness and
resentment are releasing me from bondage.., i know exactly what youre talking about .. Relating to God and really looking at myself towards Him and what He has done for me seems to be the key to unlocking those chains..