Never was an atheist, but didn't know God. His name was not spoken in our house nor was Jesus's name. Went to church a handful of times. When I graduated high school that all changed. My mom and me were in a car accident. She passed, I was in the hospital on my back for 8 weeks. I felt responsible because I was the driver. I couldn't remember what I would've done differently because as hard as I tried, I didn't remember the accident (even to this day). But I was so sad cause just the week before she told me she wanted to die, she had clinical depression.
Four months later I wanted to die, I didn't want to go on. That is when one night I lost it and was alone in our house and terrible thoughts came into my head, that I seriously thought about doing, and yelling for answers as to why! Not expecting answers, that is when I met God. He showed me his power that night, but no one in my family believed me then. It was too irrational for them in how it happened.
I though, went on and never forgot what I was shown. That he is all around us and he is watching us. Even those who yet understand His saving Grace. I took that knowledge and when I needed a friend, He was my everything. Forward to now and not only did I become saved in 2002, blessed for healing in 2011, I was given the filling of the Holy spirit along with that healing for pain. I learned that I need to be baptized and did so eagerly in Sept. of 2012. I walk with our Lord and try everyday to do one thing if not more to make all understand to never doubt God and to love always.
My family, they all are Christians, all except one brother. He is an atheist through and through. He still dismisses all my experiences with God, yet he loves me so much. I later learned many years later that when the hospital called they made a mistake and told my younger brothers that one of us had died. Being alone and waiting for my father because he had moved out 2 months prior the now atheist brother prayed for our mom to be the one who died and to let me live. He has said some things, too long to list but I view atheist as people who come across mean but inside their more broken than anyone on this earth. They need the most love.
When I first got on CC I was so naive and thought "Great a place where there are only Christians", then I read the post of many atheists. I wish we could all see into the hearts of others since God for whatever reason doesn't show us all at the same time or the same way that He love us all. Until we can look into the hearts of all we just have to keep sharing. I am just learning how to share because it is the hardest thing when your own loved one says, " Why would God come to you and give you all these experiences, when millions of others including myself see nothing from him". I just answer I don't know.