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hey guys...I thought I would just talk about how i am feeling in my life right now..because I feel as if there are some great people on here that will not judge me and maybe helped me out a little.
I have always been very emotionally driven..from a young age. the smallest thing can eithier make my day or make it really bad. Because of this, I have been upset alot these days...
I was brought up in the church mywhole life...so I have known what Jesus did on the cross..how he loves me beyond anything I can ever known...but I ahve been starting to feel that I am just ogin through the motions...I go to church..but I rarely pray...I don't read my bible...
Part of htat for me i guess...is that I am like Thomas..I need to feel His physical presence...like hes sitting right here with me...holding me when I cry...laughing when im happy...
I also feel like He would have bigger problems than me...why would He care about me...which i knwo is totally wrong..ikts probably the devil having fun with me...
On top of all this..I have had some bad thigns ahppen to me...things not working out with school...mom being disappointed in me...
On top of all this..I have this huge part of me...that is longing..for a companion i nthis life..i know im young..i have time..but its like i feed off of their attention...its like I feel wanted when they talk to me..
But its bad because even though I want a true lasting love...the kind where the guy is faithful...loves me through thick and thin..who doesnt leave me at the first sign of trouble...but I look for it in the wrong things...
Im scared..that if things dont change soon..its goign ot be bad...Im lost right now...I want to trust God..give him everythign and have lasting joy..but right now...I cant even do that...
What should I do..is it normal to feel this way??? Thanks guys..and Ih ope I havent said too much
I have always been very emotionally driven..from a young age. the smallest thing can eithier make my day or make it really bad. Because of this, I have been upset alot these days...
I was brought up in the church mywhole life...so I have known what Jesus did on the cross..how he loves me beyond anything I can ever known...but I ahve been starting to feel that I am just ogin through the motions...I go to church..but I rarely pray...I don't read my bible...
Part of htat for me i guess...is that I am like Thomas..I need to feel His physical presence...like hes sitting right here with me...holding me when I cry...laughing when im happy...
I also feel like He would have bigger problems than me...why would He care about me...which i knwo is totally wrong..ikts probably the devil having fun with me...
On top of all this..I have had some bad thigns ahppen to me...things not working out with school...mom being disappointed in me...
On top of all this..I have this huge part of me...that is longing..for a companion i nthis life..i know im young..i have time..but its like i feed off of their attention...its like I feel wanted when they talk to me..
But its bad because even though I want a true lasting love...the kind where the guy is faithful...loves me through thick and thin..who doesnt leave me at the first sign of trouble...but I look for it in the wrong things...
Im scared..that if things dont change soon..its goign ot be bad...Im lost right now...I want to trust God..give him everythign and have lasting joy..but right now...I cant even do that...
What should I do..is it normal to feel this way??? Thanks guys..and Ih ope I havent said too much