Hello. I know this post has been up for awhile, but I just joined the community here, and I was reading through and found your cry for help. I'd like to tell you a little about what I have experienced with the man I was hoping to marry. I met him 8 years ago. He was charming, he was sweet, he was centered on me all the time. We had our daughter 9 months after we met. Against God, we engaged in a sexual relationship. Naturally we had lived together as well, talking about marriage, and life, and family, and forever. Three years in, things started to change, outside stressors began to take a toll on us, strife was in the air constantly, and I finally moved out. For four long years, I waited for him to get through his "midlife crisis" and stayed at my apartment. I watched him go through 2 girlfriends, one of them was a friend of mine, and through heartache, and disappointment, and feeling failure and rejection, I prayed and prayed for comfort and the ability to forgive him. It took almost 2 years to get past the hurt, but it finally came. It still bothers me, but not as bad. So we decided we could reconsile, we knew we still loved eachother very much, and I started staying at the house again. About 3 months in I let go of my apartment, and moved in completely. 4 months into it, we started fighting again, I know what you are talking about when every word you say to them seems like you are annoying them. So one sunday morning as I am doing the laundry, it got out of hand. You see, he's the one who usually does the yelling, and I am the one who is always prying. I just want him to show mw the respect I deserve, and I don't feel I get it. So we fight. Anyway, he decided it wasn't working out, and trys to pack my things. Needless to say, he had to go through a leagl eviction process, which he and his mother did, since she ownes the house, and I had 3 days to leave. No where to go in that town, I had to quit my job, and come down an hour away to my parents. I do have my own place now, but I just want to say that sometimes, we are so certain its true love, and we do whatever we can to hold on. But sometimes God will take it away bit by bit, to loosen our grasp, so that we my recieve something better. I would like to work it out, but only God knows if we are truly meant to be. Sometimes you have to just let them go, nobody should have to be in a relationship where they have to walk on eggshells. You have a life to live girl, so let tis guy make up his mind. Go where the Lord leads you, and be comforted by him. Leaving is never easy, but sometimes is necessary. My boyfriend, we stayed together, just don't live together, which is good by God's standards, he misses me like crazy now. Sometimes you don't know what you have. But if it's real, they will find their way back. Just be strong, and it will give you an opportunity to gat closer to God than you have ever been. You won't have time to feel lonely or sad, He truly fills you up. May God bless you, hope all goes well. Just remember that if you try to fight against the will of God, he will only let you go for so long.
