J
I was diagnosed bulimirexic in highschool when I almost had a stroke and my hair was falling out. I've struggled on and off for yrs with it, but I fell mostly to the anorexic side. When I did eat, I would purge; but it wasn't your typical binge then purge. I would lettuce and purge. Lately, I've found myself unconsciously abusing laxatives. I recently was denied for donating platelets for being severely iron deficient. I though it was just typical and not anything to worry about. But at that time I'd taken laxatives everyday for a little while. Now I've been trying to figure out why I'm so tired and weak all the time, and it just dawned on me that I've been taking them again for several days in a row. It feel pretty gross to even admit this. But purging with laxatives is much easier to hide that forced vomiting. I don't really want to do this. But it honesty scares me either way.
