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I guess I'm not really seeking any advice. I'm just stuck in a situation where theres not really anyone I can talk to about it. So I thought maybe I could tell all of you and find some comfort. I've been going to this amazing church for the last seven months and have made many close friends. One guy friend who I have fallen very hard for. He is very sweet and we have tons in common. I feel like we would be a great match. The thing I found out recently is that he now has a girlfriend, someone who he's been off and on with for the last year to two years. I'm trying to forget about him but it's hard because I see him at least once a week. He is also a very touchy feely guy, so I can't help but get mixed signals about weather he likes me or not. I might just be getting over him and then he will say or do something that makes me question things. What makes things harder is that everyone else has been saying things about him and this girl when he's not there and I am. Stuff like calling her "his girl" and saying how he will be the next one of us to get married. I try to ignore it but it just breaks my heart. I'm really not interested in anyone else, and like always I allowed myself to fall fast and hard. So now things are feeling really hopeless. Many times I think about telling him how I feel, but I don't want to hurt his current relationship or our friendship. I just feel like if I tell him I can get it out there and over with and then maybe I can move on. When I listen to my friends it sounds like everyone is being matched up with someone. It makes me think "well, what about me?". Even if someone new showed up I'd be too afraid to let myself like him. This sounds very stupid when I try to type it out and explain it all. All I know is my heart is breaking, and I can't escape it!