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Well I've been a christian for a couple of years now and some wonderful things have been happening my way. But the one pain that hurts the most still hasn't been healed. I am socially isolated, have been for many many years now and despite effort and prayer, God has decided it is not time yet for that healing, and its very very sad and lonely.
Don't get me wrong, God has blessed me with great opportunities for learning, and passing on his love to others. But for me, my heart only feels the love of God and my children. I pray daily for over 2 years now for God through Jesus to send me people who I can socialize with outside of church activities but its one prayer he has chosen to hold off on. And its painful.
All I have is my kids and my mother who lives too far away to be supportive apart from the occasional phone call. I have conversations with God from time to time about this and asked for understanding. And the answer is always the same, healing. So I wait, with just me and God, him blessing me in other parts of my life, as I still suffer the pain of the thing I have prayed for healing the most, loneliness.
Don't get me wrong, God has blessed me with great opportunities for learning, and passing on his love to others. But for me, my heart only feels the love of God and my children. I pray daily for over 2 years now for God through Jesus to send me people who I can socialize with outside of church activities but its one prayer he has chosen to hold off on. And its painful.
All I have is my kids and my mother who lives too far away to be supportive apart from the occasional phone call. I have conversations with God from time to time about this and asked for understanding. And the answer is always the same, healing. So I wait, with just me and God, him blessing me in other parts of my life, as I still suffer the pain of the thing I have prayed for healing the most, loneliness.