Sister Moneisha Zempel.First dear sister in Christ please forgive my age.Many young people do not think an older brother or sister can relate to them anymore.I hope you will find this not true with me.There is no question in my mind whatsoever that life is much harder on the young people of today,then it ever was for my generation!
I mean that sincerely.To not only feel alone is bad enough, but to be alone, with all that runs through ones mind, can be even worse.Of course you have our prayers!!! There was never a question of this!If I may humbly suggest something to you,young one.What you are looking for is a transformation,a great change,a change that you yourself can not only live with,but never have to worry about things around you again.
But in this change you dear sister are required to also do something as well.There are 2 things every human,unless they have a brain injury of some sort is always capable of. Taking control of ones own mind,and ones own body.To aid in this transformation,Jesus have given us all something to help in this.His very Word.
But we have to get into it.Next we have to believe the good words he tells us about ourselves rather then what most people around us always speak about which is the bad.I think you are very brave to do such wonderful things to another,needing so much for someone to do the very same to you!
Memories are just that sis,we can choose to keep them,or we can choose to replace them with something that brings us much more peace of mind,and of Spirit within us.I to,like you, had very bad memories,and like you, I to, had to find out how in the world I could deal with them,for no matter what we run to,whether it be drugs, or drinking,when we wake the next day,the same pain which caused us to do things we know we should not do, reminds us we still have the very same problem.
For me sis,I did everything to take the pain away,nothing worked,then one day, a very kind brother in Jesus told me what I am telling you.I thought, well I sure have done everything else in my power to break this pain,why not! Here are some of the words I followed, which worked,I do not tell you what to do!!I just ask you to consider them,I ask this because as you can read Jesus is indeed in me to love you,and care about you.Jesus does LOVE YOU!! AND!!! HE CARES!!! about you as well!
To become a friend to another, like you sure did for your twin,you have to spend time with that person,even as you did your twin,as well as your sis.I know you grew up way to fast,I know much was stolen from you, because you had to do for others.Now it is time to do something for yourself! Let Jesus become your friend!He wants to,and Lord knows we sure need him to!
Please look to find a good bible based church around you,we all need support! Read some bible everyday,and pray everyday as well.I do not tell you how much,you will know! You are smart!You know the more you spend time with another the more of a friend you become to them,and!! them you! Let your needed healing begin with this scripture! It was the first scripture our loving Jesus gave unto me.( psalms 103:8-17!!)In verse 12 sis, we see Jesus has removed our sins as far as the east is from the west,that line does NOT END!!and!!!!Even better then this!! He remembers them no more!
Learn to put your sea next to his,we do this by becoming a friend to our loving Jesus! We allow our Jesus to heal us, first from the inside,then we can see his healing from our outside.It does take time sis,I will not blow smoke up your back! But as we become faithful in the very small things,we then can become more faithful in greater things.( Luke 16:10)
Notice I am showing you God's Word here?Because sis I myself can do nothing to help you,nor can anyone else who does not point to God's own Word! It is by this very Word I became healed on the inside,so now as you can see with your own eyes as you read,love flows from me on the outside.This is because of what Jesus did, and is still doing for me.He is doing these things because I am a friend to him,even as you wish to be.A transformation indeed!A new creature am I because of Jesus! ( 2 Cor 5:17)
Old things can pass away,because we let Jesus take them from us! This sis you alone must decide,we can make every excuse we want to not do it,the enemy who we have come to know as the devil can sure put thoughts in our mind as well,he is a thief!!( John 10:10) and he cannot tell the truth!( John 8:44)
That sis is the reason we renew our very minds!!( rom 12:1-2) To replace a bad memory for a good memory! Do this, and you shall know the truth, and be set free by this truth!( john 8:31-32)Do it not,and I do not have to tell you what the result will be either! I believe you to be a very brave woman! You have done so many wonderful things for so many!! YOU deserve to be transformed into the true wonderful woman you are right now!Jesus and His Word is the answer.
To me sister there is no other answer. Many people wish the Lord would just speak to them! He can you know do this! He usually does this by his very Word which he sent to us all.Here the Word of the Lord in me, to prove to you who speaks to you.( Isaiah 41:9-13) This sister Moneisha is not only words!! But rather a promise made directly to you!! His very daughter!
May every blessing find you,and always find you most well in our Lord Jesus!! amen! We love and care for our brothers and sister because we can,and we learn to do this because we follow the man who led us to be able to do this!!( 1 John 4:17-19!!!!) verse 19 WE LOVE!!! because!!! HE, meaning Jesus first LOVED US!!!Jesus died and rose again,just to make YOU!!!! free in HIM!! Praise God!! That is real love! ( john 15:11-17!!!!) Blessing to you sister Moneisha!!