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Hi, everybody!
Here, I want to share my Valentine's days story.
I'm waking up at 6a.m. like always to pray. And I see a vision: it is the light in the heaven and the darkness on the ground. And there and peoples in that darkness. But a part are flying. Flying to heaven. All christian. And one of them I am. But I'm holding someone (or something) in that darkness. I want to fly, but I can't. It hurts. A part one fly up but I'm holding something in the darkness. I'm crying, I want to come to God. But I love that one, who I'm holding. There are peoples who are trying to help me. But it's impossible. And here God says, if you want to fly and come to me, if you want to get closer and be stronger, leave it.
Then I'm feeling that I must to do that, because I feel so bad. So bad. And I could not live anymore with these feelings. And I understand what that vision means. You see, I was always doing things which I'm not allow to do. And I was lying for my self, I was even looking for verses in Bible, which can I use and be sure, that I'm allow to do that. That thing is about my boyfriend. I'm not allow to touch him, no sweet words, no love. And I was doing that. And after this vision I understood that it's no way to do these things and be with God. I was reading bible then and I red many verses which just saying that I just have to leave that what stops me to "fly" to God. Then I decided that I will do that what God wants me to do. And I wrote a message to my boyfriend. I'm writing about vision, about verses from bible, and I say to him that I will not do that anymore. And all day, it was so bad. He was talking many sad things. He was feeling bad. I was feeling bad too but I had peace in my heart. And I understood that I done a right decision. After school we were talking about 2 hours on phone. HE is totally "fallen". He is thinking about to take his life from him. He is thinking about cutting. He has no hope anymore. I'm trying to talk to him, but he's not listening. IT looks crazy!!!
And I'm still deciding to follow Jesus. It's crazy. A stupid day. I lost my boyfriend. What a love's day???
And you know, I don't care! I hate this day. But you know what? I feel that I showed my love to Jesus. Jesus showed a love for me. What do I need more?
I hate that Valentine's day is so big tradition in whole world. The world doesn't know the biggest and most important love ever! When God gave His life for a human... AMAZING! And many peoples doesn't cares about that... SO SAD!
I made a right decision and I got peace in my heart. I feel that God is now with me. And like a present, everything is good with my boyfriend. But I'm sure, If I would not choose God, I would not have ANYTHING.
So, A lucky Valentine's day. I showed my love to Jesus. And I'm going to do that always. From to day to eternity, there is no one who is more important than Jesus. He is my only Love, my only King. I can lose everything, but I will follow YOU, JESUS!
Brothers and sisters, do not forget the BIGGEST LOVE. Do not forget, what HE done for YOU!
Have a happy Valentine's Day!
Here, I want to share my Valentine's days story.
I'm waking up at 6a.m. like always to pray. And I see a vision: it is the light in the heaven and the darkness on the ground. And there and peoples in that darkness. But a part are flying. Flying to heaven. All christian. And one of them I am. But I'm holding someone (or something) in that darkness. I want to fly, but I can't. It hurts. A part one fly up but I'm holding something in the darkness. I'm crying, I want to come to God. But I love that one, who I'm holding. There are peoples who are trying to help me. But it's impossible. And here God says, if you want to fly and come to me, if you want to get closer and be stronger, leave it.
Then I'm feeling that I must to do that, because I feel so bad. So bad. And I could not live anymore with these feelings. And I understand what that vision means. You see, I was always doing things which I'm not allow to do. And I was lying for my self, I was even looking for verses in Bible, which can I use and be sure, that I'm allow to do that. That thing is about my boyfriend. I'm not allow to touch him, no sweet words, no love. And I was doing that. And after this vision I understood that it's no way to do these things and be with God. I was reading bible then and I red many verses which just saying that I just have to leave that what stops me to "fly" to God. Then I decided that I will do that what God wants me to do. And I wrote a message to my boyfriend. I'm writing about vision, about verses from bible, and I say to him that I will not do that anymore. And all day, it was so bad. He was talking many sad things. He was feeling bad. I was feeling bad too but I had peace in my heart. And I understood that I done a right decision. After school we were talking about 2 hours on phone. HE is totally "fallen". He is thinking about to take his life from him. He is thinking about cutting. He has no hope anymore. I'm trying to talk to him, but he's not listening. IT looks crazy!!!
And I'm still deciding to follow Jesus. It's crazy. A stupid day. I lost my boyfriend. What a love's day???
And you know, I don't care! I hate this day. But you know what? I feel that I showed my love to Jesus. Jesus showed a love for me. What do I need more?
I hate that Valentine's day is so big tradition in whole world. The world doesn't know the biggest and most important love ever! When God gave His life for a human... AMAZING! And many peoples doesn't cares about that... SO SAD!
I made a right decision and I got peace in my heart. I feel that God is now with me. And like a present, everything is good with my boyfriend. But I'm sure, If I would not choose God, I would not have ANYTHING.
So, A lucky Valentine's day. I showed my love to Jesus. And I'm going to do that always. From to day to eternity, there is no one who is more important than Jesus. He is my only Love, my only King. I can lose everything, but I will follow YOU, JESUS!
Brothers and sisters, do not forget the BIGGEST LOVE. Do not forget, what HE done for YOU!
Have a happy Valentine's Day!
