I thought all my old habits and addictions were gone but they keep coming back. And I keep running back to them. I dont know why, and I dont know how to fix things. I just feel like I'll never get past it. I feel alone going through it all. I'm tired of fighting it. I just dont know what to do anymore.
If you are exhausted dear one, you are trying to hard....and you need to stop, let Him carry you and sort this out
take your time, stop beating yourself up, he doesn't!
Start your day with the word, look up the promises He has for you, write them out, put your name in and speak them!
Listen to music that glorifies Him and dance! Sing! Celebrate your freedom, that it is yours!
Sitting dwelling on all that is not right....get moving! There is so much that is right, do not give the enemy the time of day !
Get out side in the fresh air....look about you, appreciate the fact you are able to see, to walk....to run?
You are saved? In a repentant relationship with your Lord? Then it is all done. Do you doubt He did not do enough? Get your mind off you....and out into His creation....is there a shelter or somewhere you could volunteer? There is nothing like giving and serving for Him that helps us to stop looking inward. You will also meet others, make new friends.
Make sure you get to worship....get support, are you in a church? You need to be looked after too but, having the faith and allowing the faith He has given you grow, means stepping out in it. Start walking as a winner, you do not have to 'feel' like one! Just start....He will do the rest. It's not easy, we were never told it would be but it is oh SO worth it.
You are loved, you are the daughter of the King of Kings!! May He bless you abundantly as you strive to be all He has created you to be. May these seeds of conviction within you grow and blossom, may you live a life of victory and purpose knowing that even if you do not know where you are going, you know who you are going with! Huge Hugs, God Bless, <><