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Im exhausted. My dad is just tiring me out. most of my lifetime its always been about him, what he wants, how he wants things to look and so on. I came out of a huge storm in my life that lasted for years. Im tired, im at the edge of breakdown. Its enough that I had lost my teen years. I mean I became a parent at such a young age. I was only 11 years old when I had to grow up and look out for my siblings. at 16 I had to quit school to get a full time job because my part time job didn't help my mom with the bills much. Then once I had my freedom I wanted to go to an artschool but my dad didn't agree with it. He wanted me to be a police officer or music technician. He went so far as to delete the message I got on the phone machine saying that I got the last opening to go to the art school I applied to. I cant tell him, because when I do try he thinks im going against him, disobeying him, disrespecting him. I love my dad but he loves me to much to the point where he makes my decisions. I know he wants the best for me but his expectations for me are exhausting to even maintain. Im tired and I need prayer for me and my mother. My young brother and my 3 younger sisters to get us by. we are currently in 20 000 dollars in debt and this is just our rent for our house. Please we need prayer.
