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First and foremost GOD bless.<br><br><br> I am writing simply because i need GOD in my life.I had turned my back on GOD a long time ago and I v been on the road to the fire of hell eversince.I am now tied to the devil in a way that seems unescapable and it worries me to think that i will be lost.so much damage has been done to my life and continues to be done to it because of my poor choices and my present condition in every sense of the word from my mental, emotional, spiritual, to my physical and economic health is extremely bad because of it.Furthermore, i do not want to seek GOD and obtain help from GOD because of my condition and then find myself back into the things that i was doing or something similar if not worse.<br> I want to do this out of pure love for GOD which i can only obtain through him and i want to never look back again.I am sick and tired of the back and forth with this matter.I feel like a yoyo who keeps going to to GOD when i am in need and then back to the devil when i feel things are better and like i do not need him anymore.I know alot of it is spycological and emotional, and that i need to target these areas seriously, but i also know that if i do not do this correctly and in time, that i could and will be lost for good.there is so much to say that can and will open your eyes and maybe better assist me, but i will not say this now or not until i am personally responded to by someone who is actually interested in helping me with this matter.thank youfor your time.and i look forward to your acknowledgement and assistance.