From my experience when life is hitting you this hard and you cant find your way or even see the good things in life. When your at the lowest point that's when God finds you. He cries for you he holds your tears, pain and hurts in his hands. He desperately wants to guide you out this dark place you have fallen into. Please search for his way out threw prayer and his word. If your cutting to release your bad emotions then try finding something else to take its place. Maybe find something to take your anger or pain out on other than your own body. When I have a rough day I throw on the punching gloves and hit my heavy bag I got hanging up for thirty min. Find a healthier way of releasing your emotions. Any time you feel the need to cut, open the bible and start reading till its gone or pray till its gone. Trust me God will never leave you even when you think he has, he has his own way of making things work. Just never lose faith.
[h=4]Deuteronomy 31:8[/h]The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged."
one of my favorite verses right there. This is when Moses tells Joshua basically your about to guide the Lords people into the promise land. But this land is was filled with enemies. Did this stop Joshua? No because he knew God would deliver his enemies into his hands. God stopped the Jorden rivers flow so the Israelites could cross into the promise land. He conquered up to 37 city's because of God. Even the great walls of Jericho. So this is the same God that loves you and wants to guide you out of your pain and hurt. This is the same God who stopped the Jorden rivers flow. The same God who brought down a city's massive walls threw a series of marches, horn blowing and finally a massive battle cry. And the walls fell so the Lords people took over the city because of God. The God who created the universe the heavens and everything on earth. But yet he wants a personal relationship with you! God love you and will not ever leave you.
Ill pray for you stay strong!
Roughsoul