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Ok, so this girl has taken up so much space in my head that I can't bare it anymore. Let me give you a run down on how it all started... So this girl moved to my town because of family issues. I met her at freshman orientation and instantly felt an attraction for her. She was not the average girl and I saw something special in her, or so I thought. Later on she was placed in some of my classes. I would always try to stand out so that she would notice me and I guess it worked, but I never made a move to ask her out or anything... so freshman year rolled by and we were distant and didn't talk much. One day my friend called me up saying that he had just talked to her and she had told him that she liked me and wanted me to text her. I did, and we began talking and soon after began dating. She was so pretty and wore big black rayban glasses, she just seemed so different from all the other girls. She had a lot of troubles though with drugs and family matters but it never bothered me because I always thought I could help fix her problems. We later on broke up and I was so confused. I then began to wonder why I truly liked her and I would say 60% of it was the fact that she was so easy to hook up with ( I wasn't truly saved at this point so forgive me of my old mindset). We later talked on and off and got back together, but it wasn't the same so I had to break up with her. This occurred about a year ago and even until this day she still texts me and is somewhat obsessed with me, but I have found God and know it's not right to be with her since whenever where together it winds up into sin. I still lust after her but know it's wrong but I always entertain the option in my head of getting back together. I am now a senior and I have probably thought of her every day since I met her, and now am desperately looking for an escape. Please give me advice on how to avoid thinking about her and entertaining thoughts about talking to her again. I just want to put that chapter of my life to an end. I've bottled all this up for a while and this site seems like a great place to vent and receive advice and support from fellow Christians. thank you so much for your time. God Bless!
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