Everyone thank you SO MUCH...These few replies have been more therapeutic than maybe you realize
....God bless you all!Everyone thank you SO MUCH...These few replies have been more therapeutic than maybe you realize
....God bless you all!
Thank you Santuzza, We have discussed some counseling, Ironically after things came out we went on a planned vacation. which helped but this will be revisited. again things have been better but we have not done this quite yet...I think We do still need to see one. On my half I still want pure truths and I think in a session this might come out and on her half we need to establish whar feelings she has for him and ultimately see what mis steps I may have taken o drive her away...there are no clear explanations of what wedge we may have driven between us.
Thanks YAC11 you are right...And in my place of prayer the Lord has dealt with me , even b4 the last few months, about my levels of forgiveness from other past issues with her. Through this the Lord has called m out, lol, so to speak. I do have to show Christ Love and I have a heart to do that. But I definately have been weakened by letting the stress get to me when I should have, and needed to leave it at the alter. Again beyond the last few months of this incident, where i have struggled with other semi unrelated sin as a result and have blamed her in some way, I need prayer for that. I am so sorry to the Lord for these things i have let cloud Christ in my life when I should be the example.
And Thanks Ariel, you are right on some points and again the Lord has called me out on some positions I had taken towards her that had me feeling I was or am more sanctified towards her. I am aware of that scipture and have lost sight of it some because of the hurt nd anger. I have to keep on in my walk if not just for me but for the both of us. Just a few notes:
"Have you ever asked to pray with her? "
Yes I have, lol..But i guess due to belief "differences" it is short simple prayers but they are steps.
"Have you tried to go to church together?"
I have gone several times to mass and was married in the cathoic church, and over 9 years I go with her every Easter. I dont mind it is a way of showing my support. she has never come with me. In Nutshell we are a Spirit filled church that have praise and worship, we speak in tongues, lol for a Catholic girl thats alot.lol
"have you studied the Bible together? "
we talk about issues, but in all honesty she is a great arguer, lol i am not. I get too emotional, not in a mean way but i cant recall scripture in that state nd will show her verses to support a point.
"had conversations about how much God means to you? "
She does know My faith is strong and I believe we should do our best to live according to his will
"Perhaps what you are seeing is her reaction to your judgement of her unsaved and unworthy status as your wife. you admit in this thread to be "unequally yoked" yet say she is Catholic as if that means she doesn't believe in Jesus at all"
I have come off as "anti-Catholic" at times early in our relationship, but have been dealt with about that...One thing I learned going to service with her and meeting members of her church and most of all my mother in Law ther are Catholic Brothers and sisters in Christ that show Gods love and have a heart after him and his ways and I have no DOUBT they have a place with the Lord, and he will say to them "job well done my god and faithful servant"...Regardless of our denominations or church I believe its the walk, we should be knwn by our fruits...it hurts my heart when you see some confess with their tongue but the actions dont match up at all, again this happens even with members at times within my own church, people whos hearts are far from him...I do believe though as far as Catholicism goes there are some things within their doctrine that have many members believe if I do a few steps here and there. Some attend Mass certain times of the year, observe lent and they think their place is set in heavan while God's ways really dont register in their daily walk. She is a great person but I cant lie and not being judmental from my own flesh but using the word as the standard the fruit is not there...I dont know for sure when we are at the judgement throne what answer the Lord will give her....I dont know if true salvation is there...I hope that makes sense :/ ...I pray hard we become a couple in FULL service to our Lord together...
"personally I would be quite upset if my husband viewed me in that manner"
...again I have come off like that in the past. I just love her so much and want to see salvation happen, going into it I had hoped it would be quick, lol...I believe I have had a spirit of jealousy at times with her, and have prayed agaist it but there is the scripture matthew 24 19 i believe about the rich man. Honestly the Lord has blessed us, we work alot and are blessed to have jobs, we have bills and are not rich but we are doing good...But sometimes as I said before she has alot on a professional level going for her. she has rised through the ranks , her job opens up doors to meet people and make connections, she is the social butterfly people love her etc. Its like things are going so well "do I need that hunger after after God". I know the end result without salvation, i also know its not my knowledge of who is saved and who is not, only the Lord knows..its just right now I feel the opposite, Not appreciated at work the last several months, bad shift changes, then you come home and sometimes you get beat up some more, no offense to the ladies,lol..but this transitions into this whole thing...I still believe for her fullproof salvation and that the Lord will continue to work on me but this has emotionally has been the second most difficult event after My mom passed a month before I graduated high school. The Lord has gave me a big heart and an emotional toughness because of this heart which is a target and gets taken advantage of. I have sought my place in this world like the Michael W smith song back in the day... and fairly recently I think maybe my role is a prayer warrior for others, praying and fasting on behalf of others. I have quite trying to convince myself only preachers or higher profile members of the body of Christ are the important ones. I am ok if that is my role but through my heartbreak the last few Months at home and job and other issues I dont think I am doing this too well right now
, and i feel so bad..I think I have failed as a person, a husband and most importantly as man who has a heart after God, so many need our prayers, our countrym etc....It hurts so bad but I have to press through but am having such a hard time...I better quite typing ,lol, i am getting worked emotionally again. I am sorry for being all over the place in this post, i guess i am just venting...Good night!
