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In the last few months, I've had a lot of pressure on me. I'm really struggling with my faith, my personal vow and my own inner battles.
The question in the title is actually what I'm asking myself...
Everyone around me keeps pressuring me, it's hard to fight off that pressure - I'm going to go into detail, please, pray for me. This pressure is hard...
When I was 10 years old, I made a promise to wait till marriage before going all the way with a guy. In the last few years, (I'm 23 now), it's been hard - no one understands that pressure you get as a young woman who is holding out. I'm literally the last one standing (aside from the REALLY little kids) who still holding the most precious of gifts in my family as a young adult.
The pressure has grown - basically everyone around me keeps telling me to go all the way. I remember the vow I made to myself and to God, that I would wait... but when no one stands with you, or encourages this --- its hard. I literally stand alone on this.
I'm 23, and even the people at work, or even my best friends keep telling me to "Try it out". Honestly, it's as if everything is against me, against my promise. Today I almost broke that vow - and... I'm terrified that I may be bending under the pressure and under the desire in my human nature.
How do I continue when everyone is against me? I call upon God constantly to keep my sanity (what little I have), and it's only by the slimmest chance that I can pull away. I know God stands with me, that in his word he says to "wait - that a man/woman will leave his/her family and cling to his/her spouse - and ONLY that person." (that's paraphrasing).
However, in this generation, being young and still holding onto the only gift that is of ANY value (virginity) is like the hardest when everyone around you is off doing it, and saying it's "Great"... Sometimes I think about giving in, and sometimes I think about the other side of it...
But the pressure has grown since I started living on my own. It's the hardest thing to hold on to... even with my vow, I feel I've bended a little, that I'm giving into the human flesh... How do you combat that? I keep asking God to help, that's all I can do... But it's still extremely hard. Like it was today...
I don't know what I'm going to do... I don't know how I'm going to stand up against everything - I fear giving in, yet I continually think about it. Everyone around me keeps pressuring me - even my closest friends... It's getting harder every day to remain pure, and I don't know - unless God has already set in motion his plans - how I will fight this onslaught.
I want a family so badly, I want kids so badly, but... I'm not reckless - careless - or stupid. But the pressure has brought me to my knees, and I don't know what to do... I want to give it away, but then again... I don't.
Pressure... Please... tell me how I can remain on my feet when everyone else is knocking me down... I keep praying, and I keep holding onto my faith, but it is wearing thin... Encouragement in this is rare, and I have no christian friends who stand by me - at least none that are still pure and understand the pressure I feel. They don't encourage me, in fact they do quite the opposite.
I really need to know if I really do stand alone, as a young adult, in this generation who is still holding out - and that I'm not alone in this pressure struggle... Please...I feel so alone in this battle...
The question in the title is actually what I'm asking myself...
Everyone around me keeps pressuring me, it's hard to fight off that pressure - I'm going to go into detail, please, pray for me. This pressure is hard...
When I was 10 years old, I made a promise to wait till marriage before going all the way with a guy. In the last few years, (I'm 23 now), it's been hard - no one understands that pressure you get as a young woman who is holding out. I'm literally the last one standing (aside from the REALLY little kids) who still holding the most precious of gifts in my family as a young adult.
The pressure has grown - basically everyone around me keeps telling me to go all the way. I remember the vow I made to myself and to God, that I would wait... but when no one stands with you, or encourages this --- its hard. I literally stand alone on this.
I'm 23, and even the people at work, or even my best friends keep telling me to "Try it out". Honestly, it's as if everything is against me, against my promise. Today I almost broke that vow - and... I'm terrified that I may be bending under the pressure and under the desire in my human nature.
How do I continue when everyone is against me? I call upon God constantly to keep my sanity (what little I have), and it's only by the slimmest chance that I can pull away. I know God stands with me, that in his word he says to "wait - that a man/woman will leave his/her family and cling to his/her spouse - and ONLY that person." (that's paraphrasing).
However, in this generation, being young and still holding onto the only gift that is of ANY value (virginity) is like the hardest when everyone around you is off doing it, and saying it's "Great"... Sometimes I think about giving in, and sometimes I think about the other side of it...
But the pressure has grown since I started living on my own. It's the hardest thing to hold on to... even with my vow, I feel I've bended a little, that I'm giving into the human flesh... How do you combat that? I keep asking God to help, that's all I can do... But it's still extremely hard. Like it was today...
I don't know what I'm going to do... I don't know how I'm going to stand up against everything - I fear giving in, yet I continually think about it. Everyone around me keeps pressuring me - even my closest friends... It's getting harder every day to remain pure, and I don't know - unless God has already set in motion his plans - how I will fight this onslaught.
I want a family so badly, I want kids so badly, but... I'm not reckless - careless - or stupid. But the pressure has brought me to my knees, and I don't know what to do... I want to give it away, but then again... I don't.
Pressure... Please... tell me how I can remain on my feet when everyone else is knocking me down... I keep praying, and I keep holding onto my faith, but it is wearing thin... Encouragement in this is rare, and I have no christian friends who stand by me - at least none that are still pure and understand the pressure I feel. They don't encourage me, in fact they do quite the opposite.
I really need to know if I really do stand alone, as a young adult, in this generation who is still holding out - and that I'm not alone in this pressure struggle... Please...I feel so alone in this battle...