Not only was I told that "God has a wonderful plan for your life" but I was given the 4 Spiritual Laws tract. However, it wasn't the words of the tract that impressed me, but rather the diligence of the man who gave it to me, in sharing Christ with literally every person I met.
My husband was the one who told me to repent, but he never said anything about what life would be like after I did repent and believe. He is still caught in the "salvation=happiness" trap, along with once you are saved, you are perfect, and if you are not, then you aren't saved. They kind of seem to go together, in a shallow sort of way. I mean, if you have Jesus, shouldn't you be happy all the time? And if you are not, then it is obviously not the fault of Jesus, so who's fault is it? A very condemning theology.
I ran in charismatic circles initially, with many friends ending up moving even further in the direction of life being a perfect, unending bowl of cherries, and condemning anyone who wasn't. Which, incidently is what bothers me so immensely about the Health and Wealth gospel - that if you are a Christian, then everything is just going to be healthy and wealthy, and if not - well, once again, the problem is not Jesus, but you!
I had been a Christian for 25 years, and about 7 of those with RA. I was at my wit's end as to why I wasn't healed. I was mad at God. But, God began to show me in the Bible, that no, being a Christian doesn't mean being happy, wealthy or healthy. It means that God is walking with us, and changing us into his image. It means that God really does use everything for our good, including pain and suffering.
So for 10 years, I've been studying the truth that the Bible never presents a "wonderful life" but rather a wonderful God. Some days in the last months, I have begged God to tell me why I have to suffer so much. I have begged him to heal me or kill me. And questioned him as to why other people don't have to suffer the terrible pain I was in to change their character into something more pleasing to him. (Of course, I know that everyone suffers from something!)
The answer remains the same. It is not about me. We can have joy in the Lord, no matter what happens. But happiness, and a perfect life are simply not in the Bible. Instead, we find Jesus suffering on the cross and dying, Paul rejoicing in his suffering, and James warning people that trials are going to come. The Old Testament is the same. God does deliver his people, but sometimes he also does not - but he is there through those hard times.
"Not only that, but we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, endurance produces character and character produces hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured out through the Holy Spirit who was given to us." Romans 5:3-5
I think that modern evangelism does sell us a false bill of goods as to what our lives are going to be like after we come to Christ. But then, maybe no one would be saved if we didn't leave out a few inconvenient facts?
Bad joke, I know! My testimony is that when God saved me, I had no idea what my life would be like serving Christ. But one thing I learned - God was with me through all the sufferings, and he is certainly in control of everything!
My husband was the one who told me to repent, but he never said anything about what life would be like after I did repent and believe. He is still caught in the "salvation=happiness" trap, along with once you are saved, you are perfect, and if you are not, then you aren't saved. They kind of seem to go together, in a shallow sort of way. I mean, if you have Jesus, shouldn't you be happy all the time? And if you are not, then it is obviously not the fault of Jesus, so who's fault is it? A very condemning theology.
I ran in charismatic circles initially, with many friends ending up moving even further in the direction of life being a perfect, unending bowl of cherries, and condemning anyone who wasn't. Which, incidently is what bothers me so immensely about the Health and Wealth gospel - that if you are a Christian, then everything is just going to be healthy and wealthy, and if not - well, once again, the problem is not Jesus, but you!
I had been a Christian for 25 years, and about 7 of those with RA. I was at my wit's end as to why I wasn't healed. I was mad at God. But, God began to show me in the Bible, that no, being a Christian doesn't mean being happy, wealthy or healthy. It means that God is walking with us, and changing us into his image. It means that God really does use everything for our good, including pain and suffering.
So for 10 years, I've been studying the truth that the Bible never presents a "wonderful life" but rather a wonderful God. Some days in the last months, I have begged God to tell me why I have to suffer so much. I have begged him to heal me or kill me. And questioned him as to why other people don't have to suffer the terrible pain I was in to change their character into something more pleasing to him. (Of course, I know that everyone suffers from something!)
The answer remains the same. It is not about me. We can have joy in the Lord, no matter what happens. But happiness, and a perfect life are simply not in the Bible. Instead, we find Jesus suffering on the cross and dying, Paul rejoicing in his suffering, and James warning people that trials are going to come. The Old Testament is the same. God does deliver his people, but sometimes he also does not - but he is there through those hard times.
"Not only that, but we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, endurance produces character and character produces hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured out through the Holy Spirit who was given to us." Romans 5:3-5
I think that modern evangelism does sell us a false bill of goods as to what our lives are going to be like after we come to Christ. But then, maybe no one would be saved if we didn't leave out a few inconvenient facts?
Bad joke, I know! My testimony is that when God saved me, I had no idea what my life would be like serving Christ. But one thing I learned - God was with me through all the sufferings, and he is certainly in control of everything!