Psalm 145:8
The Lord is gracious and compassionate,
slow to anger and rich in love.
God loves you and desires that you go to him, sometimes its hard to look up when we mess up, but we have to go to the Lord and ask for forgiveness.
Psalm 40:12
12 For innumerable evils have compassed me about: mine iniquities have taken hold upon me, so that I am not able to look up; they are more than the hairs of mine head: therefore my heart faileth me.
Another thing brother, God's word is the truth, if it says he will forgive or he loves you then it means exactly that, God does not lie, God is truth and light.
God loves you even as he loved Jesus!