I know this will cause a huge war but I had to write my thoughts.
Sometimes like today I am overcome by an overwhelming desire to marry Jesus. In my heart I can see me in a wedding gown and Jesus and I have the most intimate love together. today this happened out of nowhere I just say a picture of jesus and a bride and bam I was overcome with the strongest desire to marry him and was brought to tears and said to him Lord will you be mine?
But I have an issue. The only way I can marry him is if I die or am taken in the rapture. I have had many rapture dreams and some of them it just happens out of nowhere others certain things happen first. It would be so wonderful if there was even a chance Jesus would come for us tonight, but I have the hardest time believing that the rapture is even close. The evidence is right before me mainly the blood moon tetrad but still no matter how much I want to believe I can't.
The word soon is often used in referring Jesus coming for his bride but soon is such a vague word. I know that it has to be in his time and we just need to be patient and most of the time I do this but when this type of thing happens I can't help myself.
I had a 7 or 8 vision series about this subject around dec. of last year. all in church while caught away in the spirit praising God with abandonment.
1st vision. I saw a stair case going up to heaven. I tried to go up that stair case, but my feet just went through the steps.
2nd vision, the next church service. I saw the same stair case to heaven except this time 2 angels grabbed me under my arms and helped me go part way up that stair case to heaven.
3rd vision, I saw lots of stair cases to heaven in an open area in the church and two very small angels with their hands in their pockets looking like they had nothing to do and no one who wanted to be helped up those stair cases to heaven.
4th vision, this time i zoomed up and down the stair case to heaven unaided by any angels.
5th vision, this time I went up the stair case to heaven as an angel, and you couldn't see my head because light rays were emanating out of my head and I had on a garment made out of diamonds, with light emanating from those diamonds. I looked down at earth and saw the bride of Christ and she was taller than anyone around her, and she was dressed in a whoop skirt with puffed sleeves on her blouse, she danced around in a circle praising god, then sometimes she would lift the hem of her skirt so as to not trip over it. and dance in place.
The last day I was in church god called me out of that church in a vision while I was praising god in the dance. i went to my seat fell to the floor and began kissing the feet of Jesus while prostrate before him with no effort to conceal what I was doing. Usually when I bowed down to the lord and kissed his feet i would cover my mouth with my hands so no one would see me cause I knew that would freak them out, but this time for some reason I didn't care if they saw me or not.
anyway
last vision. while sitting at the feet of Jesus I was suddenly woodshed up the stair case to heaven as the bride of Christ. I had long blonde hair with a tiara in it. and I had long eye lashes that when I flicked them they would send out waves of sparkles. I was so beautiful that their was an aurora of sparkle around me. and I was seated on the floor at Jesus feet at the top of the stair case to heaven. The experience was phenomenal, words can't convey how phenomenal it was.