I've seen many of your post on here, wondering why you're not getting closer with God, receving certain gifts of the Spirit, and so on....maybe you're being held in bondage of playing games God wants you to give up, however you can't see that, because you're blinded by them. I'm not saying that's the issue, but that it COULD be. Also, I've noticed you tend to blame depression and things like that, and wonder why you can't be delivered from it....again, maybe those games are ''evil'' and keeping you from where you should be with God. Which depresses you and all. I understand you have disorders or and things, the depression and OCD or whatever it is you said....however, you can't blame those things for every single thing. I know many, many people that beat those things through faith in God alone. No meds at all. Keep the faith, keep fighting, and pray about it. Ask God if those games and other things are the issue, and if He wants you to give them up. God bless you.