no no no, on my profile I stated I have been a christian since birth but I've never been baptised. Which was true, for about 13 years I thought I had been baptised as a baby and I've always said I was a christian. I have never at any point in my life been anything but a christian. What I meant by make my OWN decision was she didn't want to force what she believed on me. She wanted me to make the choice on my own
Baptism is then an outward act by which you signify to witnesses that you want to 'die' to yourself, and live only for Christ. As you enter the water you are signifying that you want to die to sin. As you come out of the water it signifies rising again in newness of life. The water is a picture of the Holy Spirit's renewing power, in the same way as rain renews vegetation.
God bless you