Romans chapter (5) must be a bummer for you and so difficult for you to even read. It contradicts everything you believe about grace, salvation, justification and the righteousness of God. How can you leave out of your faith such a crucial chapter of God's inspired word. Maybe that is why you have such a problem understanding certain aspects of the faith of the Son of God, who died and gave His life for us. Maybe some day your eyes will be opened and light will enter in and remove the obscurity / Is 29:18, 58:10, 59:9.