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What do I do?... What do I say?... Does He see me happy, this way?... Not wanting to question every feeling, Im only asking, for a healing... Should I cry, or should I lie, about how my heart feels as if its about to die inside? Lost in confusion you give me a transfusion, Lord please dont let me feel no dillusion... Knowing, I am barren. Still You have not stopped caring. My strength fails me, oh yes it will. But God I am lost as to how this is your will.... Will I forever remain childless, seeing only a shadows glimmer of hope? Lord, I know Im not wrong, when saying I'm no pope. Father my soul is in distress, feeling like a bride with no dress. Only in my under garments, which have turned to rags. satan points to me, as he brags. Jesus help me, please dont leave me frown. Help me turn my hurt, upside down. Let me smile, as my cares are in your hands. Heavenly Angels... Please guide my prayers safely up to Him, or I'd be drowning and this is not how I know how to swim. Father give me strength to press on, even when my joy seems long gone. Looking back at the pieces which are my life, I press on, knowing His sacrifice. Jesus I thank you for your tender mercy, You make my heart melt, like a hershey! Lord even when I cant see it, You knew it would fit. In Your grand design, I had to be made utterly blind. I failed to see You're point of view, for this You have always knew. That 1+1=2 or 3 or 4 and my life shouldnt be a bore. You've known this all along, that someday I'd sing a sad song. As the days break into a brand new Dawn, You push me, to move along. You encourage me to hold my head up high, this... "I cannot deny". Then one day out of the blue You let me understand a secret, as I imagined You saying thats from Me to all of you. Dearest Child of mine, please dont be sad, but look on Me as your heavenly Dad. Know that I love you, so please dont be bad. I know your not all the same, because if so, life would be just laime. Some of you have different colors but these things are what I love about you. Some of you are big, some are small. But do you know what? I still hear every call. And I love you all. I cannot tell You every reason to your problems, but leave them as treasures to be found. There is where you will find your ground. As we wonder why some are able and some are not, fill your souls like a pot. Listen to wisdom and never let it go, from there is where, true love flows. But where it goes, no'one knows. Open your hearts to those in need of you, for they cry out we also want to help you. To be continued......