Ladies and Gentlemen
look i know i ramble on and rave like a morbidly crazed self-absorbed melancholiac stuck marinating in an eternal pity-party catered by my own self-sustained prison. i dont want to do the wrong thing i hunger to do the right thing. i am pouring out the words. i lack company. no one to talk to. really really talk to. yes i take meds. 3 meds. i have been a substance abuser. i cant quit smoking and i'm destroying myself, yes i have built up and bolstered destructive fortress in which i decay surrounded by its despairing black walls. no i seek the light SAVE ME MY SAVIOR
misunderstand me not. yes i am a sick fool, i've been feeding on and poisoning myself with disgusting toxins that thrive on demonic darkness. devouring the apple of sodom it crumbles into ashes and tastes of emptiness and leaves me emptier. O Lord I want out. show me out of the den daniel in the lion's den drugged out by his own deluded depressed deadness of the spirit. o Lord i want not these empty tasteless fruits of filth. I hunger for you. yes i have wasted away in the wrong places yes i am caged within the hideously twisted labyrinth of my mind blinded by the deadly darkness gnawing and trying to devour me. O Lord no.
i dont want to be in this place. i've dug my own grave. im seeking help. dont know what for the life of me to do with my life how can i crawl back into the vigorous vibrancy of life, get back on my feet and feel the feverish fervor of the life you want for me. I offer myself to you hook line and sinker. i renounce the fiend and his path to destruction. i must cease this self destruction. Lord I want to take up your yoke, i want to thrive i want to be revived. how did i get stuck in this miserable morass im broke in debt more alone than ever. i cant foresee how i will participate actively in the world again living abundantly under the radiance of your perfect light. O I LONG FOR IT.
i want to clean up this disgusting mess so barren lonely pointless just adrift dead inside stuck dont know what to do. Lord you know the desires of my heart. o u know the hurting. uknow i long for love and connection. Lord i want life that i might have it abundantly conforming to your will with unbending passion. o Lord everyone let the trumpets sound im not shrieking in search of pity or tears no i want out. if my prayer comes out garbled incoherent rambling raving drivel o Lord u know how to read me inside fluently i apologize to those who wish not to be troubled in the deciphering of this madman's drivel churned out in the wee hours of the morning im sick of the sickness
cant foresee my way out. Christ ALmighty i surrender isurrender irelinquishmyownership over life lead me down the straight and narrow. just want Jesus joy want to contribute to the world yes iwanttoget married yes iamsad about turning 34 june 16th yes i fear permanent solitude a barren winter all my days my candle crying its weak starving flame forlorn gone astray weakening weeping all the way to the dying day inhaling all this poisonous smoke stagnating burying myself under the blankets resigned to the meaningless monotony holed up in this hellish teeny tiny suffocating sterile world where i am the drugged out delirious despairing half-dead crooked corpse-king. break the silence. jumpstart the engine
im ready for super frenzied stormwind to whip me up with gusto turbulence fire me up Lord may the Holy SPirit swallow me whole steal me out of this wretched place o amazing grace to save a wretch like me formulate the words proper to supplicate u my heart is aching for u
iam 110% honest in this profuse outpouring from the torture chamber of my mind I am crying out from the deepest innards of my tangled up tormented languishing soul OLORDLETNOTME LANGUISH ANY LONGER DEFEATED DEFILED LOST IN ANGUISH NO LORD I WANT IT NO MORE
raise me like Lazarus, lift me up from this lonely loser leper den where i the lions feast on me ingest me infect me where i have been hidden cut off listless inside the suffocating walls quarantined sorrowful and saturated with the scores of sores and searing stab-wounds and scathing scars stapled to my heart put me back together repair me resurrect me from the despair and disrepair from the dungeon where i've been hanging dangling driving motionless over the edge drowning in darkness save me save me save me suffuse my heart and spirit with the sacred salve of the Holy Spirit, O LORD HEAR MY PRAYER
SOS SOS SOS RESCUE ME from the bottomless pit deep down in the sterile silence sucked dry and left vacant entombed in the void in the valley of the Shadow of Death. may i live and live abundantly lead me to the still waters and green pastures to the discovery of the life YOU HATH DESIGNED i wish to live in accordance with your will transform my heart mold me make me anew fresh
COMFORT ME EVERMORE and RESCUE me with thy ROD and STAFF I am yours come to me now console me o Lord cure me hear me take me as yours renew me that I live fully and procure the life YOU have in store for me. I say Yes, I say Yes. I dont know if im saying the right words. But Lord you know my heart, fix me and build me up with YOUR STRENGTH set me aflame and fill me to overflowing fastened to Thee unflinching in faith.
I cannot live without You. I am not living right now. Show me the way to True Life to the one and only Holy Undying Light. O Lord I am ready. Anoint me with the Mercy and Goodness that I may follow you all the days of my life take up my cross take up THY YOKE and live life abundantly in accordance with thy PERFECT WILL love me don't leave me O Lord please lead me to the waters that are enduring, fulfilling and forever perfectly serene and still.
And I will dwell in the House of the Lord. I am knocking now imploring Thee Lord open Thy Door and take me In. cleanse me from this cancerous sin and keep me for all time under your roof and within Thy House O LORD.
I am readier than ready for a new life to begin.
In THY PERFECT NAME o Lord O G_D YHWH Christ Almighty
Amen
look i know i ramble on and rave like a morbidly crazed self-absorbed melancholiac stuck marinating in an eternal pity-party catered by my own self-sustained prison. i dont want to do the wrong thing i hunger to do the right thing. i am pouring out the words. i lack company. no one to talk to. really really talk to. yes i take meds. 3 meds. i have been a substance abuser. i cant quit smoking and i'm destroying myself, yes i have built up and bolstered destructive fortress in which i decay surrounded by its despairing black walls. no i seek the light SAVE ME MY SAVIOR
misunderstand me not. yes i am a sick fool, i've been feeding on and poisoning myself with disgusting toxins that thrive on demonic darkness. devouring the apple of sodom it crumbles into ashes and tastes of emptiness and leaves me emptier. O Lord I want out. show me out of the den daniel in the lion's den drugged out by his own deluded depressed deadness of the spirit. o Lord i want not these empty tasteless fruits of filth. I hunger for you. yes i have wasted away in the wrong places yes i am caged within the hideously twisted labyrinth of my mind blinded by the deadly darkness gnawing and trying to devour me. O Lord no.
i dont want to be in this place. i've dug my own grave. im seeking help. dont know what for the life of me to do with my life how can i crawl back into the vigorous vibrancy of life, get back on my feet and feel the feverish fervor of the life you want for me. I offer myself to you hook line and sinker. i renounce the fiend and his path to destruction. i must cease this self destruction. Lord I want to take up your yoke, i want to thrive i want to be revived. how did i get stuck in this miserable morass im broke in debt more alone than ever. i cant foresee how i will participate actively in the world again living abundantly under the radiance of your perfect light. O I LONG FOR IT.
i want to clean up this disgusting mess so barren lonely pointless just adrift dead inside stuck dont know what to do. Lord you know the desires of my heart. o u know the hurting. uknow i long for love and connection. Lord i want life that i might have it abundantly conforming to your will with unbending passion. o Lord everyone let the trumpets sound im not shrieking in search of pity or tears no i want out. if my prayer comes out garbled incoherent rambling raving drivel o Lord u know how to read me inside fluently i apologize to those who wish not to be troubled in the deciphering of this madman's drivel churned out in the wee hours of the morning im sick of the sickness
cant foresee my way out. Christ ALmighty i surrender isurrender irelinquishmyownership over life lead me down the straight and narrow. just want Jesus joy want to contribute to the world yes iwanttoget married yes iamsad about turning 34 june 16th yes i fear permanent solitude a barren winter all my days my candle crying its weak starving flame forlorn gone astray weakening weeping all the way to the dying day inhaling all this poisonous smoke stagnating burying myself under the blankets resigned to the meaningless monotony holed up in this hellish teeny tiny suffocating sterile world where i am the drugged out delirious despairing half-dead crooked corpse-king. break the silence. jumpstart the engine
im ready for super frenzied stormwind to whip me up with gusto turbulence fire me up Lord may the Holy SPirit swallow me whole steal me out of this wretched place o amazing grace to save a wretch like me formulate the words proper to supplicate u my heart is aching for u
iam 110% honest in this profuse outpouring from the torture chamber of my mind I am crying out from the deepest innards of my tangled up tormented languishing soul OLORDLETNOTME LANGUISH ANY LONGER DEFEATED DEFILED LOST IN ANGUISH NO LORD I WANT IT NO MORE
raise me like Lazarus, lift me up from this lonely loser leper den where i the lions feast on me ingest me infect me where i have been hidden cut off listless inside the suffocating walls quarantined sorrowful and saturated with the scores of sores and searing stab-wounds and scathing scars stapled to my heart put me back together repair me resurrect me from the despair and disrepair from the dungeon where i've been hanging dangling driving motionless over the edge drowning in darkness save me save me save me suffuse my heart and spirit with the sacred salve of the Holy Spirit, O LORD HEAR MY PRAYER
SOS SOS SOS RESCUE ME from the bottomless pit deep down in the sterile silence sucked dry and left vacant entombed in the void in the valley of the Shadow of Death. may i live and live abundantly lead me to the still waters and green pastures to the discovery of the life YOU HATH DESIGNED i wish to live in accordance with your will transform my heart mold me make me anew fresh
COMFORT ME EVERMORE and RESCUE me with thy ROD and STAFF I am yours come to me now console me o Lord cure me hear me take me as yours renew me that I live fully and procure the life YOU have in store for me. I say Yes, I say Yes. I dont know if im saying the right words. But Lord you know my heart, fix me and build me up with YOUR STRENGTH set me aflame and fill me to overflowing fastened to Thee unflinching in faith.
I cannot live without You. I am not living right now. Show me the way to True Life to the one and only Holy Undying Light. O Lord I am ready. Anoint me with the Mercy and Goodness that I may follow you all the days of my life take up my cross take up THY YOKE and live life abundantly in accordance with thy PERFECT WILL love me don't leave me O Lord please lead me to the waters that are enduring, fulfilling and forever perfectly serene and still.
And I will dwell in the House of the Lord. I am knocking now imploring Thee Lord open Thy Door and take me In. cleanse me from this cancerous sin and keep me for all time under your roof and within Thy House O LORD.
I am readier than ready for a new life to begin.
In THY PERFECT NAME o Lord O G_D YHWH Christ Almighty
Amen
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