Romans 8:38 For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, 39. Nor height, nor depth,nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Now, I am going to speak some truth to you because you are my young brother in Christ. What you have done is murder your child. This condemnation fills you from within and satan absolutely uses that to have you think that you are now beyond salvation and somehow you are no longer wanted by our Heavenly Father. Now it probably punches you in the heart when I say you murdered your child. Just as it punched me in my heart for many years because I too murdered my child. Do you think that Christ is not enough? Do you think that somehow you could ever measure up to Gods requirements? The answer is no, not one of us can measure up to the requirements of God and thus the necessity of the Lamb Christ Jesus in our life that we would be washed clean by his blood that we would no longer allow satan to remind us of offense that has been forgiven in Christ. My recommendation to you young man, now this is going to be tough for you cause you currently are of the world and letting satan separate you from Christ. Do you not think that your heavenly father doesnt see what satan has done in your life in temptation and lies. Now turn away from the one who is in the world and seek ye first the kingdom of Heaven and all Gods righteousness. Yes you'll fail, its inevitable cause you are human but you must absolutely turn away from this sin and get in communion with the Father. Abstain now. No this is not about your works, it is about Gods word and obviously sex for you is a tool that satan uses quite well to keep you separated from the Lord. I recommend that you get down on your knees and cry out to the Lord for forgiveness and feel the waves of cleansing release. Then you need to pray and ask the Lord to wrap his loving arms around you and shelter you through this storm. The Love of the Father, an unimaginable love that we most certainly can do nothing to deserve. With that being said, I have a certainty that you need to turn away from your sin & focus on pleasing the Lord and finding out what pleases the Lord. Also read your Bible knowing that it is ABSOLUTELY relevant to today and that there can be Gods pupose in everything even the unimaginable. I know the condemnation you feel. satan continued calling me a murderer and condemning me for a decade after salvation and I believed him. Next you need to ask your girlfriend for forgiveness. Thats going to be a tough one but you can do all things through Christ who strengthens you and then you need to truly forgive yourself as your Father has already forgiven you. I want you to set aside a day 24 hrs for prayer and fasting (yes you can go about your life in that day) but there is nothing better than communion with the Lord in fast. Speak to him every moment from your heart. This is for your healing, not necessary for forgiveness in the Lord but necessary for you to get back on track in your walk. Would you turn away from God forever? Do you know eternity? Please dont make that choice for you have a repentant heart & I'm sure you are forgiven. I would also recommend that you ask Jesus into your life as your Lord and Savior. Pray the sinners prayer again but with a repentant heart open to the Lord that he would truly wash you clean and fill you with the Holy Spirit a rejuvination of the Holy Spirit. When the Holy Spirit convicts you that you are in err, please listen ok. Bless your heart, I'll go to your profile & get your name so i can keep you in my prayers. Oh also, about your pastor... do you not think that he has had to endure his own trials in his faith walk? You may be surprised for often pastors are greatly attacked by the evil one that he could effect their great commission. I would confess your sin to your brother in private and he WILL not turn his back on you. He will love you. I pray that this will be his response. He may hit you in the face with some biblical truth but this is loving you. I would recommend that you listen to him ok. Bless your Heart for you are not a murderer you are not a thief you are not a liar you are not a covetor you are washed by the blood of the Lamb and you are the most precious child of our Heavenly Father & this I know for sure.
