I am separated from my husband of over 30 years. The verbal abuse and other issues finally caught up to me. Now I feel like such a failure and so incredibly lonely. I have suffered from depression for years, and every time I think I have hit bottom, that bottom falls out from beneath me and I sink to a new level. Not trying to complain, just feeling so hopeless. Am I so far along in my life that there is no chance for happiness? I have a wonderful counselor but often wish for death. The only thing that keeps me alive is the fact that I don't want to cause pain to my loved ones. I pray, read the Bible, try so hard, but each day is overwhelming. I find myself breaking down in public lately. When does it ever get better?