- Mar 19, 2016
I am having problems with trying to map a plan with my next year or so in life so to speak.. I am having trouble deciding life situations like my living situations, my school, future work, etc... I know i am overwhelming myself by thinking of 90 things at a time but that's how i have always been. I almost feel like if i don't have some kind of plan i panic more. Lately my mind on what to do has been all over the place. The medical care in N.Y. is getting horrible and almost worthless in a lot of aspects. I have a friend in Georgia that tells me she is getting treated very well from her doctors. But I know i do not want to leave my kids behind for many reasons. then we have my back being a pain that one week seems to be okay then the next is in a major flare and back and forth. so when I feel good i am like yes i can do anything. then it flares up or goes out and I am like Lord please I can't bare this or barely move.. I just need prayers that maybe I can get some help from the Lord to figure things out and make me at least feel less anxious... p.s. I have been trying to quit smoking again for the thousandth time ughhh It has been 4 days and I have cheated about 5 times or so .... my husband has no interest in quitting and will smoke around me so it is making it very difficult plus the stress I am feeling. I pray i just make it this time I am using a app. to track my smoking so maybe that will help me follow through this time...