Believing in God providing

[full-on4christ]

Here is my story, relationship wise.I was a player when for 2years of my life,14-15.I then realised that the only thing I gained from making out with a girl who I barely knew was a story to tell my friends.I realised that I was looking for more and that the kissing was really not that great and I was looking for more in life. It was really just very dull and flat.I then realised this was because there was no love.I got the spirit led me to a point where I had repented my deeds and I had apologized to every girl in person. I then decided to never kiss another girl unless we are in a relationship and I decided to never go into a relationship unless I knew that it was Gods will and she was my wife.I never had a relationship because I knew they bring to much baggage that my one nights with girls don't.I was living this fantasy about a girl I knew for only 2 days when I was 12 and believed she was the one I would marry.Whenever I was starting to develop some feelings for any girl I would measure the girl to this girl I really don't know and haven't seen after that and I was just never prepared to let this fantasy/dream girl go.Thus I never when into a relationship.This all changed when I was 16.For the first time in 4 years I have started to develop feelings for a girl which and was prepared to let this dream go. Things didn't work out.I was really longing for that special woman in my life but kept on praying and telling God that I will wait on His prvidence and asking Him to look over my future wife.A year later things started again and I prayed and knew that God was talking.We got together and had 3.5years.She decided she needed to find herself.She said she was more in love than ever, but she had an guy who was 7years older coming to visit daily.Well a month later they were together.I went to God before I knew they were together. I told Him I would be fine if I was just used to help her grow, but asked if He could just let me release these feelings for her.He didn't answer me until a month later a asked Him what His will was.He told me she is my wife, but she's not ready and He has to do a lot of work with her.He spoke to me directly and as I know to test all with the word I asked Him to help me as I fear this might be my own wish and inner thought.He led me to Romans 4:19-25. He has brought a couple of things along my way to reinforce my believe.But she is still with the guy and tells everyone how she knows that this is where God wants her.When we broke up she said that my purpose in life may have been for me to help her meet him and her friends.I am exhausted and just want to turn my back on the whole situation but there is no way of me doing this without turning my back on God and that I cannot do.There are a lot of other things that happened but I just want to love again.She is pushing me out of my church and taking away my oppurtunies to do work in my church.

Any advice or motivation??

 

[full-on4christ]

I didn't quite get to finish my post off.The thing is I don't believe in dating.I believe in waiting and trusting on God to provide.

I look around at many married couples over 50.Most of them didn't meet until they were 20, most of them had at least one year seperating them.Know if God is able, to create a partner for someone a year before they are born, then he makes sure that they grow up and learn things in such a way that they one day will meet and that their history doesn't cause problems. This is true, thus how unbelieving and how small our faith, our knowlegde of God that we date and go about trying to find that person on our own. There are billions of people, I could never meet them all, but by faith I won't have to because God will inform us when we have stumbled across our partner, that i if it is our time.

If God can create and govern all as I have said and know is true as in the bove paragraph, then this is proof enough that He has created someone special for each one of us. And as many people challenged me, look at these people who get married after 30years after their partner passed away and look how happy they are, I say, If God provided after the first 20years, it will be no effort for Him to do so after 50 years.

My relationship that has ended really took the life out of me and I had to completely rebuild my faith.But writing this just gave me hope again.Things have been standing my relationships way when we first laid eyes on each other 9 years ago.Lies from friends etc.One of the most important things I have learnted is that the more your relationship portrays God, the more satan attacks by lies and deceit. Exactly like in the book Wild at Heart by John Elderedge, that happened to m and my girlfriend.Know after 7 months of living like a married man, because I have been told who my partner is thus by even thinking of another girl or flirting I am sinning I am exhausted and pray for someone else quite often. Please pray that her eyes open or that God sets me free to meet someone else.

May God bless all who reads this

 

[greatkraw]

Thank you for this. It is very hard to have the courage of your convictions. I have been waiting all my life and I am 50. I have not told anyone, but God told me I will become a husband and a father; but it may be another 10 years.
It is easy to say that I am imagining this but God has confirmed it in more than 1 way and I must be true to the relationship I have with my creator. God has been preparing my personality all this time and is still preparing me for my life's work.

The scriptural principle is; when you are engaged on your life's work God will bring along a helper suitable for you.

Your post has been a great encouragement and reminder to me. Thanks.

 

[kristinei]

to greatkraw: you haven't been married even once? thats very encouraging that at your age you are still waiting for God's time that God will provide you a partner... me, i will be 30 and i am kinda worried that i will never ever be married.. though i know too that God will give me a partner in His time

 

[greatkraw]

Never been married, never been shacked up, I do enjoy a hug and a kiss. On occasion it has been more than 10 years from the one to the next.

I like your Bible verse.....

Proverbs 16 (21st Century King James Version)


9 A man's heart deviseth his way, but the LORD directeth his steps.


see also

Proverbs 3:5 Trust in the LORD with all thine heart, and lean not unto thine own understanding;


6 in all thy ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct thy paths.

and

Psal 37:4 Delight thyself also in the LORD, and He shall give thee the desires of thine heart.

5 Commit thy way unto the LORD; trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass.

 

[kristinei]

i am thinking that maybe i can meet my partner here..if not maybe friends... but am really looking for a partner..

 

[RubberDuckie]

I will be praying for you. I've had similar circumstances. -hugs-

 

[blizz]

I got this quote from one of Grace's posts

..."A womans heart should be so hidden in Christ that a man has to seek Him to find her."

I just really like this quote and thought I would share it