I feel like I let someone down every second of the day. I wish I was stronger and better able to cope with my divorce, the death of my dad,my upcoming job loss,the shame I feel about not doing enough for my children. The worst part is my failure to trust God that my life is never going to be what I know He wants it to be. My big fight is with myself. I have made alot of my problems. I pray to be grateful,learn from my mistakes,and begin to believe in myself. I pray to see that God is trying to make me new.