Surely this must have been brought up by others. In my case, I think I have a good idea, and as long as I've been reading and judging it by God's word and asking for advice to even pastors and people, it's still not so clear, especially when I appear to not do it for the reasons other people do. Well, to ask more specifically as just asking is masturbating a sin, that's always debated even with scripture. So, I hear the action usually of masturbation isn't a sin, but lust. And they say that's the desire of flesh and sinning. Now, years ago, I did do it by accident which is a personal weird story actually, and I was so young it didn't involve any thought of sexual matters and just enjoyed the different feeling and it became a habit. Over the years, I did begin to naturally change as all people basically do into desires for sex. Yet, I always was highly against sex before marriage, being perverted and such. I also wake up sometimes with dreams of a wife that I have never been married, and I can wake up with very sexual feelings and it's difficult to not masturbate and just ignore it. And if I don't masturbate, then sometimes I can have wet dreams and that bothers me because it gets on my bed or myself and I have to wash clothes when I'm really not easily able to with things I have. I also would enjoy a wife for someone to love and share sexual feelings with, but I'm in no position to be a man to barely even take care if myself from my very difficult life that is very unlike the common people I met around the u.s.a. plus it's hard for people to even want to be my friend for how I am whenever I get upset and angry, even though I have a really kind side and a heart of the Lord. So, it does say it's better to be married in the bible for your sexual feelings rather than using them with others not being married for it would be sinful. And I'm still a virgin, in person, I never look at females with lust and in fact if they talk to me, I try to encourage them to cover their bodies with more appropriate clothing. It disgusts me. I also really don't want to be married actually unless I feel someday God really wants me to be. Because of many reasons of how it will change my life and even the woman I'd may for both good and bad reasons. So, I'm basically stuck sometimes will these feelings, wishing I could have a wife to use them, but I can't and surely I could not marry anytime soon. And I have seen pictures of naked women before in masturbation, yet I don't like to see them having sex in the pictures or anything besides just sitting there. I find it as attractive beauty. Yet, many times it sounds lustful. But any other time I don't think perverted thoughts, and it's not a daily thing so it's not a very strong habit. But I have done it for years and I tried to not do it, but it is also quite hard to completely ignore it. Plus as I mentioned before, if I ignore it then it will happen asleep and do something to bother me so I can't really control it that way. In all that, is it wrong to masturbate in my circumstances/situation, with or without thinking of or seeing pictures of women in my mind? It really won't effect me with real women, I know that for I completely don't like to see women in person or in front of me and be lustful. But I do have sexual feelings that only this seems to release.