I applied for jobs last week where I am planning on moving.
Two of them want to schedule phone interviews with me Tuesday. On another, on my profile it says my application is "being actively considered along with others".
My mom told me tonight, "I will say this about you, Rachel, when you decide on something, you go after it." I took it as a good thing, but I also know it's a weakness of mine. Along with that comes doubt, back and forth: excitement, assurance; doubt, fear.
If I can move to South Dakota, 800 miles from home, where I knew literally no one, then I can do this, where I will be living with a great friend, I have my cats, I know people around the area. It's like I long for a change and yet I'm scared of it.
As a side note, tomorrow is the day I tell my best friend from where I live now that I am moving. She is in college now and we don't see each other that much (her uni is about 3 hours away), but we are very close. I dread telling her.
And then I think into the future, about saying goodbye to my parents, and my church, and my coworkers. It is times like these when I think, "What the heck am I doing??" I haven't made a big, life-changing decision like this in a while. I forgot how terrible it feels.