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I'm on the EMS squad in my town. I got my EMT certification in December. Lately I've been thinking that this isn't for me. I've only been riding one day a week so far, and only for five hours. I don't have much time for more hours due to school (still in high school), homework, sports, hopefully youth group soon, Bible study, and everything else. Recently I was informed that I have two weeks to learn everything I need to know, which I basically know now except for a few things, and that I have to ride more hours. Whenever I have time for myself I start to feel somewhat depressed, and I'm pretty sure this is because I feel so bad for the patients we take to the hospital. I haven't been on any aweful calls yet, but I've heard other members talk about calls they've been on, and I'm pretty sure I couldn't handle it. I've been praying about this for a couple weeks now, and I feel like I should stop riding more and more every day. I haven't told anyone this yet. I'm afraid to tell my parents. My dad took the EMT course with me, only because I wanted to become an EMT. I know he'll be dissapointed when he finds out I don't want to ride anymore. And I don't even know how to talk to my mom about this. I don't exactly talk to either of my parents about my life/how I feel. I've actually done a pretty good job about hiding my true feelings from everyone, which I know isn't a good thing.
That's pretty much it... Please, if you have any advice, let me know. I really need it. Thank you and God bless!
That's pretty much it... Please, if you have any advice, let me know. I really need it. Thank you and God bless!