I have a problem with temptation, had it for years even when I gave my life to Christ. There was multiple times that I was convicted, and shamed. There was times of repentance, but then it always came back. Well tonight, I feel so terrible. It's as if God just gave up on me. I no longer feel convicted which I heard its a sign of your salvation is gone. I am starting to doubt and fall away. I'm so scared right now I feel like I will eventually go back to the way I was in the world...lost. I prayed and prayed for help and I never got a respond. I wait and wait and its as if it's done for good. I never felt so drawn away. Everyday I read the bible...I try to pray from my heart everyday...I try to repent and display love for everyone. I don't have job, I don't go to school anymore....so I am very confused. I don't know what else to do...if I lost Him why don't I just die!!!!!!!!! I rather not exist than to live a life against Him. I'm losing hope so fast, it's making me hurt really bad. I'm such a screw up!!!!