I remember a few month ago that was very angry with God and testing him if he was real because at that time I was a new Christian and I was feeling a complete different person. I was kind of doubting God existence and I didn't know much about the bible and I attended church a few times. I remember blurting out something against the holy spirit when I was angry which I regret. At the moment I feel something different or thing change. I didn't know there was a sin. So far lately I haven't feel god in my presence or my holyspirt instead I keep on hearing my own voice of my head that I was going hell for committing that sin, I'm no longer save, or god isn't going to forgive me for that unforgiving sin or I will always feel guilty of that sin. I was thinking about going to back to my old life because I know that God will never forgive of that sin I committed and I will foreverly be lost.
Keep in mind what your feeling is of God but in Godly sorrow leading you to repentance. But at the same time worldly sorrow and we know who is of the world(satin), will do everything in his power to tempt you into sin. Do not give him and foothold in your life and confess, repent, and push forward knowing God has forgiven you.
2 Corinthians 7:10New International Version (NIV)[SUP]
10 [/SUP]Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrow brings death.
Blasphemy against the Spirit like someone said would take a lot more knowledge of knowing what your blaspheming.
1 Peter 2:2New International Version (NIV)
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2 [/SUP]Like newborn babies,
crave pure spiritual milk, so that by it you may grow up in your salvation,
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12 [/SUP]In fact, though by this time you ought to be teachers, you need someone to teach you the
elementary truths of God’s word all over again.
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Anyone who lives on milk, being still an infant, is not acquainted with the teaching about righteousness.
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But solid food is for the mature, who by constant use have trained themselves to distinguish good from evil.
Sister with great love you are still an infant in faith and need the elementary truths/milk of Gods Word. God expects different things from people at different stages in ones faith. Obviously as infants you are only learning who God really is.
To blasphemy is directed toward the mature/ whole food ingesting Christians. That knows 100% who by constant use have trained themselves to distinguish good from evil, curse and deny the spirit of God.
God is also known to back away and let his children be tempted but in
1 Corinthians 10:12-13Holman Christian Standard Bible (HCSB)
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13 [/SUP]No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to humanity.
God is faithful, and He will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation He will also provide a way of escape so that you are able to bear it.
God may have pulled away just to further mature you in your faith and he has given you a way out by just putting your trust in him. God loves you, ingest it and let shine the projection of it.
And to be honest I would tell anyone who even thinks they committed the unforgivable sin, if mentally possible to keep chugging forward and live for Christ. After all why gamble with thinking If I did. And just live everyday in love and humbleness to bring God all of the glory as for he has the gift of salvation that you could never earn.
Follow him with all of your heart, mind, and soul and do everything in love.
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[j][/SUP] He gave His One and Only Son, so that everyone (
YOU) who believes in Him will not perish but have eternal life
Galatians 5:25 If we live in the Spirit, let us also walk in the Spirit.
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