(I made this post on my blog here: But I decided to also post it here)
God has given me a lot of great talents, and I tend to enjoy my art one the most. It's what I went to school for, it's what I do the most out of anything.... And I think maybe it could be something career related? I don't know.The good thing about visual art is that there are a lot of different venues with which to make a "business." I think the hardest thing for me is being able to really commit to one specifically and put all my efforts into that. I kind of have a "jack of all trades master of none" thing going on right now. I have about 5 small stores with art prints that I have done hardly anything with other than a little advertising on my social medias, a patreon that I never post to, a Youtube where I started to make story videos but gave up because I kinda don't want it to be about me, and this. Plus several ads on freelancing sites for my art. So it's like I have a ton of tiny feelers everywhere, and I find myself saying "If I were famous I'd be making money" but I don't want to wish for fame. I want to make God famous, not me. I think that "well if God is gonna be made known if you're known then that will be good" but I still feel like that's me justifying that want for glory. So I really kinda don't wanna have any "internet fame" but just something to support myself to make my daddy not worried about me if he passes.At the same time, it's like I can't really commit to anything right now because I'm taking care of dad. Not to say that I'd really even decide if dad was healthy with nothing wrong. But I mean.....should I try and make some kind of basis for a business while a ll this is going on? Would it be too much pressure for me without my realizing it? Hm.....Adulting. It's insane.