I just got out of a relationship my first real and best bf which I had real hopes on ended up in the worst way possible… we used to pray together and he was my everything and I thought of myself to be the luckiest and Always thanked God for him in my life…but somehow it ended with his parents breaking off with me and treating me like a tramp… I suffered and lost my health and that pain is still there deep down Altho it’s been months now…I really got closer to God and I started listening to podcasts and got really encouraged by God’s Time and I thought and to this day I know it’s his plan that is happening but I have been going through the repercussions of the aftermath of the pain I put myself through while the relationship ended and whilst doing all this I thought of picking myself up and starting my job hunt and I was positive but it’s been months and I don’t know how to put this but I am still broken inside for losing the Love of my Life who broke up with me in the worst way possible and not just that he is out there successfully going on about his career and I know I shouldn’t feel jealous but it Hurts to know that he is truly successful and that his job has kept him really occupied that he had no time to even feel the pain whatsoever but with me even after several months I am all by myself picking up myself and waiting and wondering when the doors will open. Am I forgotten? I had severe hair fall after the breakup and I lost my self confidence and everything…It’s hard to even pick myself up and everytime I do I get disheartened looking at all the closed doors. Why didn’t God deliver me and open doors? How do I keep holding on to Him still ?
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