maybe i'm the only one who doesn't have a "TRUE" passion.. seriously.
I've done a lot of things that i love to do like #1 basketball, in the middle school i fell in love with basketball literally!!! i always practice all day every day everytime whenever i have spare time, i never leave my basketball even when i eat my dinner i have my basketball on my side, i always carry my basketball and dribble dribble and dribble everyday until i get really good at it and make it to my school basketball team..
but everything's changed when i went to highschool, ALL OF my new friends don't play basketball and that makes me stop playing basketball.. since then, i broke up with my basketball
in highschool i'm trying to find new things to do, and i found #2 beatboxing was really cool, fun and awesome!!
i can say i fell in love with beatboxing LITERALLY!! i practice every single day just like how i did with basketball.. i beatbox everywhere at the school, in my bedroom, in the BATHROOM (that was my beatbox studio lol), everywhere! i still remember that day when i was nonstop beatboxing while walking back home from school.. i kept doing it until i get really good at it and all the people at my school recognized me as a beatboxer. but when i get graduated from highschool, i stopped beatboxing. i don't really know the reason why.. i just don't feel like it's awesome anymore.
and then i tried to find new things #3 making 3D animations, i fell in LOVE with it! for me that's really awesome!! i love to make things that is real/imaginary into digital or 3D!! but my love with 3D animations didn't last long..
because i went to college and my mom and my big brother told me to take Informatics Engineering as my major, instead of Graphics Design
i told them that i love to do 3D animations things but they didn't care..
i really don't like things that i found in my college right now.. Informatics Engineering
i don't like programming, calculus, and all things that use logic.. because i'm stupid i don't like complexity lol. I don't like any of them, but still i'm trying to do my best at college. I've tried to fall in love with Computer Networking, but i think it doesn't work.. because i know deep in my heart i don't like her
so here i am right now, i don't really have TRUE passion like you do..
i think i'm just going to do what God wants me to do, but i still don't know what He wants me to do.. lol
i still don't know what is my calling, but i'll keep on asking and keep on waiting..