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Don;t have a longtime girl that I've gone out with but I definitely connected with the girl in college that I met , I was considered by a lot of people to have been going out with her because I was always with her going to lunch. But, I wasn't. I just had a couple morning classes with her and we sat by each other and talked and then came the Homecoming Dance and I was going to ask her out and found out that my dorm rooommate was going out with her. I wanted to KILL him. Oh, I am just kidding. Maim, hang, drench, drown, is more like it 
But, yeah, we CONNECTED . After homecoming, she and I quit eating with each other all the time, my roommate didn't stay with her after Homecoming but, yeah, the seating was rearranged in classes and I just let her go.............
Then, I ran with her in January for 13 miles (I just told this story in another thread butwill elaborate in this one ) . I chattered about my mom and dad's divorce a year earlier and bitter years of marriage age 12 to 17 before they split and all that went with that and I can't remember all I talked about, but she just listened. After the run, I was not even tired, and, I'd never come close in my lifetime to running 13 miles ever. I played soccer, in midfield, so I ran a lot on the field, I won a 12-minute run , running around a 1/4 mile track as many times as you can in 12 minutes, this when I was in 7th grade at a junior high with 500 kids, half boys in it, so, I was a distance runner. But, not like that !
Anyway, we connected in September and things went good for two months and then Homecoming and then a hiatus a couple months before I just happenstance met her in the lobby of our split female/male dorm my frosh year. She said she was going running and said I could go too, or, I asked her, or she asked me. I think, I said before she asked me, but, now that I think about it, I don't know that's completely true. Anyway, we went running and I was in love with that girl--connnected.
Then, nothing came after that, she was really not into me anymore. So, went February, March, April, and, in May, right before school was out, I saw she was with a sophomore on the final day of school, I should clarify, they were leaving together for the summertime.
I just went home, my cat died that year. Then , school sophomore year, she had a ring on about October, on her right hand, engaged to this guy. I just went writing her off the list of potential girls. In March, next year, of this my sophomore year, my roommate said to her in a chance encounter, 'My roommate stilll talks about you.' I said no SUCH thing, but, yeah, it wasn't more than a week later she'd broke off the engagement with this guy. I don't remember her pursuing me after that my sophomore year. but, my junior year? Oh yes !
I went to all the college dances and danced with all the girls Friday, Saturday nights . She danced with me a few times, and, nothing ever came of it, even through this slow dance song, 'Is your love strong enough,' by Jeff Hartman? (look it up on youtube, I should). She wanted me to re-connect. I did not.
Finally, she cornered me , my SENIOR yearr, around March, and, we ate together, by ourselves, at a table in the chow hall and she said words that still ring with me today, 'You're different now.'
I just didn't know what to say, except I knew that I was with a good smattering of bills to pay from college and no real job yet and still pursuing playing pro soccer (muscle injuries persistently nixed that dream) so, the next time I saw her was in May, at graduation, and, I saw her after the ceremony tassel-turning deal and I said something to her. I want to tell you what I said, but I can't remember, it was something like, 'I wish you well, (name) , I see so much potential in you as a worker and a person in the world but not with me.' I am pretty sure I said something like the last bit because I knew at graduation , thought, anyway, she was hoping for one last try for 'us.'
After I said that line above, or, something close to it, she broke down and cried and I just stood there and tried to comfort her but she then ran off. I never saw her again that day or any day.
Yep, that was my connection, and, that;'s the only one in life I can talk about, oh well, the Lord leads
But, yeah, we CONNECTED . After homecoming, she and I quit eating with each other all the time, my roommate didn't stay with her after Homecoming but, yeah, the seating was rearranged in classes and I just let her go.............
Then, I ran with her in January for 13 miles (I just told this story in another thread butwill elaborate in this one
) . I chattered about my mom and dad's divorce a year earlier and bitter years of marriage age 12 to 17 before they split and all that went with that and I can't remember all I talked about, but she just listened. After the run, I was not even tired, and, I'd never come close in my lifetime to running 13 miles ever. I played soccer, in midfield, so I ran a lot on the field, I won a 12-minute run , running around a 1/4 mile track as many times as you can in 12 minutes, this when I was in 7th grade at a junior high with 500 kids, half boys in it, so, I was a distance runner. But, not like that ! Anyway, we connected in September and things went good for two months and then Homecoming and then a hiatus a couple months before I just happenstance met her in the lobby of our split female/male dorm my frosh year. She said she was going running and said I could go too, or, I asked her, or she asked me. I think, I said before she asked me, but, now that I think about it, I don't know that's completely true. Anyway, we went running and I was in love with that girl--connnected.
Then, nothing came after that, she was really not into me anymore. So, went February, March, April, and, in May, right before school was out, I saw she was with a sophomore on the final day of school, I should clarify, they were leaving together for the summertime.
I just went home, my cat died that year. Then , school sophomore year, she had a ring on about October, on her right hand, engaged to this guy. I just went writing her off the list of potential girls. In March, next year, of this my sophomore year, my roommate said to her in a chance encounter, 'My roommate stilll talks about you.' I said no SUCH thing, but, yeah, it wasn't more than a week later she'd broke off the engagement with this guy. I don't remember her pursuing me after that my sophomore year. but, my junior year? Oh yes !
I went to all the college dances and danced with all the girls Friday, Saturday nights . She danced with me a few times, and, nothing ever came of it, even through this slow dance song, 'Is your love strong enough,' by Jeff Hartman? (look it up on youtube, I should). She wanted me to re-connect. I did not.
Finally, she cornered me , my SENIOR yearr, around March, and, we ate together, by ourselves, at a table in the chow hall and she said words that still ring with me today, 'You're different now.'
I just didn't know what to say, except I knew that I was with a good smattering of bills to pay from college and no real job yet and still pursuing playing pro soccer (muscle injuries persistently nixed that dream) so, the next time I saw her was in May, at graduation, and, I saw her after the ceremony tassel-turning deal and I said something to her. I want to tell you what I said, but I can't remember, it was something like, 'I wish you well, (name) , I see so much potential in you as a worker and a person in the world but not with me.' I am pretty sure I said something like the last bit because I knew at graduation , thought, anyway, she was hoping for one last try for 'us.'
After I said that line above, or, something close to it, she broke down and cried and I just stood there and tried to comfort her but she then ran off. I never saw her again that day or any day.
Yep, that was my connection, and, that;'s the only one in life I can talk about, oh well, the Lord leads
