Marg777, you have previously stated that your long-distant "friend" Ben is an alcoholic, he gets mad at you if you call him, he lives with elderly people and/or godparents and hasn't much money, he knows you are unhappy and yet causes you even more grief by leaving you hanging. You post on a regular basis for prayer that you will hear from Ben. He's not a faithful friend or you would have peace. Ben is not a friend at all. He offers you no more friendship than a glass of alcohol offers a drunk, or a needle full of heroin offers an addict. You need to hand him over to God, Marg and leave Ben there.
Dear lady, I know you must be so tired of grieving in heavy heartache and tormented by anxiety. I'm so sorry you have to experience that. But Marg, there is a way out. In fact, only ONE way out.
Sister Marg, have you given your life to Jesus Christ? Have you repented to God for not trusting Him and taking matters in your own hands against His will? Trying to find a temporary escape in things that are not helping you? Run to God boldly, Marg. You can go with confidence to the throne of grace of Jesus Christ.... He honestly cares and loves you with an eternal love! You can submit your whole heart to the Lord and tell Him exactly how unhappy and heartbroken you are... ask Jesus to renew your mind and make a right spirit within you, sister... only the Lord can make you genuinely happy and set you free from all this anxiety.
Father God, You know Marg's heart and know what she needs, You have prepared a way for her, lead her in that way, Father and be her refuge and strength! Be Father to her children and keep them safe and in Your grace. Jesus, I thank You for bringing Marg to us that we can pray and intercede on her behalf that she be totally set free in You! We pray life and light to Marg in the name of Jesus Christ our Lord!